By the name of ALLAH Most Merciful ,
today , i'm feeling so miserable , but i can handle it .
everything is going going gone and i really hate it ,
I really hate when people change , even though i've changed a lot ,
I hate when I have to pretend there's nothing wrong with me ,
because when I don't , people seem getting away from me , and it is so sucks.
So , here my new game ,
we play with denial ,
we deny that we sad ,
we deny that we love,
we deny that we like ,
we deny that we hurt so much and grieving like the hell inside.
we deny that everything turn bad,
well , my ex-boyfriend call joe already dumped me , well , it is so hard ,
err.. nope. it is so painful ..
okay , i start my day with going to college , sending my little sister to work . and then , talking talking with my friends and lecturer,, and here it goes , my day as student ,
after 5 , i prepare to go to kfc kl sentral , well , i am a multitasker , so , I did . part-time cashier ..
and then , of course I don't want to be the old myself that so so emotional .,
and i am so into my friends .
so . i am just being me ,
deny what I like ,, deny when I sad , and deny everything that i could,
and play with abandoned,
people there call me ira..
which is so good to hear and i really love it ..
what i have to do is only being a quiet person and bla bla bla
and , i hate assignments so much ,.and i mean it ,
okay .. and , my family will move on to Gombak soon ,
emmm , what else to say ?
I really hate Joe . i mean , i hate him because he choose someone else,
but I deserve better , rite ? am i right ?
so , may i have all the power to leave you . to make you as my memories ,
even though you were my soulmates ,
and hating you is the most exhausting ..
I have family to work on , i have a really big responsibilities , and i have something to prove ,
so , i choose my life ,
may Allah take care of you yesterday darling ...
and .. talking about bestfriends , I don't know.. we've changed ,
so . may i can cope with what coming next ..
study , study and study ,
I wanna be a doctor , so i really have to heal myself first , then others,
i really have to ...
I want to be a doctor ..
it's a fardhu Kifayah man :)
and I really wish i can build a house for my father to keep gardening . my mother keep smiling.
my sisters and little khael keep swimming , and my havoc maksu can cook , cook and cook ..
I really have to pattern my lifestyle perfectly , I mean , near to perfectly.
Okay , Have a nice day readers . . .
May we got Jannah ..
:")
today , i'm feeling so miserable , but i can handle it .
everything is going going gone and i really hate it ,
I really hate when people change , even though i've changed a lot ,
I hate when I have to pretend there's nothing wrong with me ,
because when I don't , people seem getting away from me , and it is so sucks.
So , here my new game ,
we play with denial ,
we deny that we sad ,
we deny that we love,
we deny that we like ,
we deny that we hurt so much and grieving like the hell inside.
we deny that everything turn bad,
well , my ex-boyfriend call joe already dumped me , well , it is so hard ,
err.. nope. it is so painful ..
okay , i start my day with going to college , sending my little sister to work . and then , talking talking with my friends and lecturer,, and here it goes , my day as student ,
after 5 , i prepare to go to kfc kl sentral , well , i am a multitasker , so , I did . part-time cashier ..
and then , of course I don't want to be the old myself that so so emotional .,
and i am so into my friends .
so . i am just being me ,
deny what I like ,, deny when I sad , and deny everything that i could,
and play with abandoned,
people there call me ira..
which is so good to hear and i really love it ..
what i have to do is only being a quiet person and bla bla bla
and , i hate assignments so much ,.and i mean it ,
okay .. and , my family will move on to Gombak soon ,
emmm , what else to say ?
I really hate Joe . i mean , i hate him because he choose someone else,
but I deserve better , rite ? am i right ?
so , may i have all the power to leave you . to make you as my memories ,
even though you were my soulmates ,
and hating you is the most exhausting ..
I have family to work on , i have a really big responsibilities , and i have something to prove ,
so , i choose my life ,
may Allah take care of you yesterday darling ...
and .. talking about bestfriends , I don't know.. we've changed ,
so . may i can cope with what coming next ..
study , study and study ,
I wanna be a doctor , so i really have to heal myself first , then others,
i really have to ...
I want to be a doctor ..
it's a fardhu Kifayah man :)
and I really wish i can build a house for my father to keep gardening . my mother keep smiling.
my sisters and little khael keep swimming , and my havoc maksu can cook , cook and cook ..
I really have to pattern my lifestyle perfectly , I mean , near to perfectly.
Okay , Have a nice day readers . . .
May we got Jannah ..
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