Finding solace in the stories of strangers

Questions and answers lies deep in my mind. Sometimes we know what is the best for us. However, we act differently because something hold us back and for me it is my heart. My heart is so powerful.

Heart controls almost everything. Thus, purifying it is a necessary.

Keep looking for the cure. What I did was I put myself among strangers and listen to them. Listening to their stories made me felt like I am not alone facing this.

I'm sleepy. My point is.. I found solace in strangers.

Formula Nama-nama Kerajaan Awal Alam Melayu

Yesterday, I created a formula for my little Icha since memorising history's name and facts is too hard not for only her but for me also.

Here we go.

Funan Campak Srivijaya di P.Pangkor, bertukar menjadi orang Tua dan meninggal sebagai Warganegara.

Funan, Champa, Srivijaya, Angkor, Kedah Tua dan Gangga Negara.

Sekian.

5 Things I Love About My Father

Dear readers,

I am going to write about my mysterious, funny, brilliant, compassionate, unpredictable, quiet and handsome daddy of mine.
I love him.
I love my father so much.

1. Ayah knows my favourite food like yong tau foo, nasi lemak paru, my geng eating fruits, my badminton geng, cycling buddy but also tukang marah when I could not handle my anger. We fought like cat and dog and can live without one another. But when it comes to makan time. He will never miss my name. Even though he knows I am on diet.

2. Beaches. Ayah love beaches so much and back then he will always looking forward to bring me and adik to Pantai where we build sandcastle. Ayah also is a very big fan of nature. He loves waterfall. He loves hills and he loves village vibes. Hence, I am becoming one of nature lovers too. Ayah also is a very great gardener. Every baby seeds grow gracefully with his touch. He once bought me a small rose plant. I am so mad at birdies who come and bite my roses. My father said 'Buat apa nak marah-marah, kan dapat pahala'. =( But still, I blame the birdies for eating my poor pretty rose :p

3. Ayah is a very great fan of P.Ramlee, He only laugh when watching P.Ramlee's movies. Bayangkanlah. Also, he enjoys cartoon. Like, when we where kids, he wake us to watch dragon ball at 9am and sometimes he lie to us and pretend the show is on tv and we would rush to the living room but.. everything is a lie coz Ayah wanted us to get out from the bed je. And he would laugh at us sarcastically.

4. Ayah also love Kembara, Kopratasa and all the golden songs back then. Raihan! Of course. He always sing, even using his hand and knock anything in the car as music instruments just to rhyme with us. Ayah, don't lie.. I know you love me singing since I was kid. But I know, you do not want me to become entertainer.. coz you care about my hereafter.

5. Ayah never called me Kakak. Ayah will always call me by full name. Munirah. Munirah and Munirah. I do not know why but Ayah.. why you love that name so much? Okay. Got to do my work now. May Allah put my ayah as the closest person next to Prophet Muhammad saw. Amin <3 p="">

14 days away from it

Dear readers,

I guess I'm doing good with my own way. I know it is putting my hereafter matters and faith at risk.
For now, it is lessening my pain so that I can still walk to work everyday.
I am really thankful for my mom and dad for they are very understanding and let me have my own time recovering from the loss and all.
May Allah grant them the highest paradise.
I love them.
So much.

While I am doing good with my job and my students. I still think I need to enhance my self care matters. Also, the fact that I am dealing with losing a lot of people in my life but.. it's okay.
Allah knows what is the best for me.

Knowing the line on my page

Dear readers,

I am currently going through a very rough phase of life.
Where, I could not brain or digest my reactions towards what's happening inside me.
Lot of my friends said that I need to seek a professional help and even a psychiatrist.
But, I really know that once in Kelantan. I really am healed which I think it is maybe because the 'Gardens of Paradise'. I want to feel those feeling once again.
The peace. The joy of being with Allah and only Allah. But all of these noble dreams will never comes true if I cannot overcome my internal chaos. Again.
There so much ways has been given, my question is. . . how do you stop yourself from acting irrationally. Should I list out what is rational everyday. I think. Maybe I should. From now on.
Am I on my track in my returning journey back to Allah? Where could I get all the taufiq?