Be ready. Always prepare for that.
Saturday, July 14
Thursday, July 12
New semester is scary
So many things going around in my head lately. I don't know when it started. I think it is one of the signs that I overthink everything. I want to believe that everything will be okay. I prayed that I don't have to run into people who broke my trust. I don't know how to react with it. I'd feel fear in my chest, betrayal in my heart and anger in my shoulders. What to do ohh
Thursday, July 5
Absolute chills!
Wish I could've been in the crowd ;)
Wednesday, July 4
Begin Again
They have both lost everything. Except their musics.
You should watch it but ignore the trailer. This movie has so much joy, life, laughter, and musics. It feels like you're breathing the fresh air. :D
The songs is the movie is genius too :)
You should watch it but ignore the trailer. This movie has so much joy, life, laughter, and musics. It feels like you're breathing the fresh air. :D
The songs is the movie is genius too :)
Tuesday, July 3
Kelas Biologi with Mr.Shahir
Excited to learn back about progesterone, estrogen and fsl during ovulation and implantation hahaha.
Also, blood type and always remember the recessive is O and the dominant one is the rest.
Why blood type B is anti-A and why blood type A is anti-B, why blood type O is the universal donor but can only receive from its own and why blood type AB is universal recipient? What about the siamese twin. I love biology :)
Also, blood type and always remember the recessive is O and the dominant one is the rest.
Why blood type B is anti-A and why blood type A is anti-B, why blood type O is the universal donor but can only receive from its own and why blood type AB is universal recipient? What about the siamese twin. I love biology :)
Kelas Biologi with Rafi
We cover a little bit about the oogenesis and spermatogenesis. Then, discussing past year question on the paper 2 and paper 1. I hope he will spend his time to read more.
Happy Birthday Mama :D
I hope you enjoy your birthday this year and we managed to buy an artsy clock. We bought it for her to put it at the kitchen. However, she wanted it to be at the living room as she afraid the clock might be broken by the heat and oil comes from the cooking. She also wanna share her feelings and to not put it only in her bedroom. Haha. She is so cute.
A birthday trip by Ayah :)
Ayah decided to bring us to Port Dickson after raya at rumah Paklong. I love beach. I love the way it brings back my childhood memories. I love them.
Happy Birthday me :)
I wanna be more grateful. Thank you to Intan, Azureen, Angah, Along, Amal and Mimi who always cheer me up on my birthday since I was in secondary school.
Thank you Azureen Azha for drive me home and sleep at my house. I really appreciate it.
Thank you Mama, ayah for buying me a beautiful cake and we shared it because mama's birthday was selang satu hari from my birthday.
Thank you Razanah for being the first person who sent me a warm wishes at 12.00 am.
Thank you new friend that I really happy to know you guys, Farah, Haziq, Irfan and Athirah for wishing me with a sweet speeches. I will pray the best for you all.
Thank you everyone, I will continue and adding more info into this post. I am really touched by everyone. It is so meaningful to me.
Thank you Azureen Azha for drive me home and sleep at my house. I really appreciate it.
Thank you Mama, ayah for buying me a beautiful cake and we shared it because mama's birthday was selang satu hari from my birthday.
Thank you Razanah for being the first person who sent me a warm wishes at 12.00 am.
Thank you new friend that I really happy to know you guys, Farah, Haziq, Irfan and Athirah for wishing me with a sweet speeches. I will pray the best for you all.
Thank you everyone, I will continue and adding more info into this post. I am really touched by everyone. It is so meaningful to me.
Thursday, June 28
The Spaceman
I wrote this while listening to the music of Linkin Park, Roads Untravelled.
I find this song really beautiful and related to me. It gives me shivers ever time. :')
Can I just draw of what just happened?
Ya Allah, I'm crying. Tak tahu nak start mcm mana :') :')
What could I say about this?
Wow! When a friend told us about their past. We are considered lucky coz they can open it up and have courage to describe it patiently even it is a very painful story to be shared with anyone.
'Screwed up' from the chance of being excellent in our life. Walaupun dh mempunyai kehidupan yang baru. I don't know how he did survive but I do hope he'll be okay. While me, Alhamdulillah I found a way to not too regret and hating myself for my past. But when I shared about not being able to achieve my previous ambition. I can still feel the pain. I know it cannot be compared with anyone's that has more devastating life than me. But it is still hurt.
However, what I am worried the most is what will happen if anyone of u did not realize that the most talented person, the happier person, the one we thought always has control over their mental health stability but actually struggling to fight on just to feel okay. I pray that he will never give up. And I believe he will because he is the spaceman. Thank you for making me believe that I can improve. I hope what you've learn from me even though I don't know whay it is could help you a little.
Ya Allah, give us both strength as he said orang2 yang ada potential macam kita ni tak mudah jalan hidupnya and mungkin Tuhan nak kita belajar lebih banyak dalam kehidupan berbanding org lain.
He looks positive about it, seems healed but excruciating isn't it my friend? So, I think I have no time anymore to acah-acah. I must strive hard to improve myself. To be more confident about myself.
Let the excellentness inside rise again and kali ni for Allah and the rest who needed it.
I cried again because his taste on musics is so exquisite. Touching and reaching the heart of those who listen to it. He said yang dia terharu because a musical girl like me acknowledge his taste in music as a wonderful choice. Actually, I should thank him coz found many songs that I can relate with my life and can keep accompany me anywhere.
One of the songs inside the SERENE is 'About Today'. He said the song came from a film named 'Warrior' where his only fav hollywood actor Tom Hardy starring . He said the song helped him during his depression years and yes Alhamdulillah that he is now in treatment.
Maybe because he is tentative, observant and artsy. He tend to think that he is alone but actually there will always people who sincerely and genuinely care about other people's life. Get well soon Buddy. The space need you huhu!
Found that he was also one of my bff's student at KY. And I told him that his lecturer, Aunty Anne, has terrible health condition and he was shocked too that I am related to his caring lecturer back then.
Mama also knew that I gave Aunty Anne's number phone.
I wanna write more but I'm so sleepy right now. Tbc.
I find this song really beautiful and related to me. It gives me shivers ever time. :')
Can I just draw of what just happened?
Ya Allah, I'm crying. Tak tahu nak start mcm mana :') :')
What could I say about this?
Wow! When a friend told us about their past. We are considered lucky coz they can open it up and have courage to describe it patiently even it is a very painful story to be shared with anyone.
'Screwed up' from the chance of being excellent in our life. Walaupun dh mempunyai kehidupan yang baru. I don't know how he did survive but I do hope he'll be okay. While me, Alhamdulillah I found a way to not too regret and hating myself for my past. But when I shared about not being able to achieve my previous ambition. I can still feel the pain. I know it cannot be compared with anyone's that has more devastating life than me. But it is still hurt.
However, what I am worried the most is what will happen if anyone of u did not realize that the most talented person, the happier person, the one we thought always has control over their mental health stability but actually struggling to fight on just to feel okay. I pray that he will never give up. And I believe he will because he is the spaceman. Thank you for making me believe that I can improve. I hope what you've learn from me even though I don't know whay it is could help you a little.
Ya Allah, give us both strength as he said orang2 yang ada potential macam kita ni tak mudah jalan hidupnya and mungkin Tuhan nak kita belajar lebih banyak dalam kehidupan berbanding org lain.
He looks positive about it, seems healed but excruciating isn't it my friend? So, I think I have no time anymore to acah-acah. I must strive hard to improve myself. To be more confident about myself.
Let the excellentness inside rise again and kali ni for Allah and the rest who needed it.
I cried again because his taste on musics is so exquisite. Touching and reaching the heart of those who listen to it. He said yang dia terharu because a musical girl like me acknowledge his taste in music as a wonderful choice. Actually, I should thank him coz found many songs that I can relate with my life and can keep accompany me anywhere.
One of the songs inside the SERENE is 'About Today'. He said the song came from a film named 'Warrior' where his only fav hollywood actor Tom Hardy starring . He said the song helped him during his depression years and yes Alhamdulillah that he is now in treatment.
Maybe because he is tentative, observant and artsy. He tend to think that he is alone but actually there will always people who sincerely and genuinely care about other people's life. Get well soon Buddy. The space need you huhu!
Found that he was also one of my bff's student at KY. And I told him that his lecturer, Aunty Anne, has terrible health condition and he was shocked too that I am related to his caring lecturer back then.
Mama also knew that I gave Aunty Anne's number phone.
I wanna write more but I'm so sleepy right now. Tbc.
SERENE is so sad :(
I was feeling blue and searching for a sad playlist that could make me cry. I found two by Spotify but suddenly felt to try hearing SERENE by Irfan Faiz and I did.
It was so said. Roads Untravelled by Linkin Park makes me cry, then the song from National titled About Today also brought tears to my heart. The songs in that playlist were magically touched my heart. It sooth me in some ways. Thanks. :'
It was so said. Roads Untravelled by Linkin Park makes me cry, then the song from National titled About Today also brought tears to my heart. The songs in that playlist were magically touched my heart. It sooth me in some ways. Thanks. :'
Kelas Sejarah with Amin
Alhamdulillah but quite nervous. Ajar someone for Sejarah SPM. My fav subject too :)
He seems clever and he has no problem in memorizing Sejarah's facts. So, I asked him why did he need a tutor. He said he had problem with KBAT's question. Lack of ideas to answer the question.
I nodded my head and start with going through all the chapter and also start doing KBAT's questions for 4 chapter from form 4. I will check the rest next week. He said his previous tutor was not compatible with his xurrent syllabus. Amin knews what he needs and I am grateful for that.
May Allah ease his journey for his SPM. I'll pray the best for you.
He seems clever and he has no problem in memorizing Sejarah's facts. So, I asked him why did he need a tutor. He said he had problem with KBAT's question. Lack of ideas to answer the question.
I nodded my head and start with going through all the chapter and also start doing KBAT's questions for 4 chapter from form 4. I will check the rest next week. He said his previous tutor was not compatible with his xurrent syllabus. Amin knews what he needs and I am grateful for that.
May Allah ease his journey for his SPM. I'll pray the best for you.
Wednesday, June 27
I am quite sad
I guess my netball's team dah mula lupakan I :')
Dear knee, tak tahu nak cakap macam mana. Awak bila nak sembuh :')
Rindu sukanlaaaaaa :')
Dear knee, tak tahu nak cakap macam mana. Awak bila nak sembuh :')
Rindu sukanlaaaaaa :')
Monday, June 25
Alhamdulillah
Kelas tuition with a new student named Rafi. He was quite smart and the only problem he had was lack of reading. He wanna be a businessman or entrepreneur.
He got a right teacher tho haha
The one who inspires him is Garry what I still can't remember. But I believe he has a bright future InsyaAllah. I'm getting used now to teach and share what's inside my mind.
Made a video for my bestfriend. She is is sad because of something that happen. Somwtimes she's okay but most of the time she is sad. I made her to create Spotify account too. I hope she'll be fine
She will.
Got a call from Maksu. Alhamdulillah that she is delightful being there with her husband. She also state that when we got married. Allah will put the special feelings and the sense of belonging to each other. It was different from before they were married. Uncle Mathias's family also being very understanding. Family picnic with halal food. Alhamdulillah Ya Allah for making this for maksu. May Allah bless her :')
Adik pulak was not in emotional stable. She lose someone that she loves and she is managing her life with busy working and entertain herself with her way. Maisarah on the other hand still playing with her game and sometimes she study.
Do not be afraid Munirah. You got this.
:)
He got a right teacher tho haha
The one who inspires him is Garry what I still can't remember. But I believe he has a bright future InsyaAllah. I'm getting used now to teach and share what's inside my mind.
Made a video for my bestfriend. She is is sad because of something that happen. Somwtimes she's okay but most of the time she is sad. I made her to create Spotify account too. I hope she'll be fine
She will.
Got a call from Maksu. Alhamdulillah that she is delightful being there with her husband. She also state that when we got married. Allah will put the special feelings and the sense of belonging to each other. It was different from before they were married. Uncle Mathias's family also being very understanding. Family picnic with halal food. Alhamdulillah Ya Allah for making this for maksu. May Allah bless her :')
Adik pulak was not in emotional stable. She lose someone that she loves and she is managing her life with busy working and entertain herself with her way. Maisarah on the other hand still playing with her game and sometimes she study.
Do not be afraid Munirah. You got this.
:)
Sunday, June 24
CONFESSION: New day means new beginning
Yes, I am in my excellent academic achievement during my secondary school. Unfortunately, I lost my pace through time. I don't know how does it happen. I am sure that I want to have the momentum back. However, I am more happy with my new personality. I've changed since 2014's incident.
I know that it is impossible to convince my old friends that I am no longer the Moon that was so childish and cannot control my anger. Attached with only certain people. My secondary school's life physically look so amusing but it is actually abusing me and my heart did not get the help that it needs. That time I was so arrogant and always look down to others. If my old friends are reading this, I am truly sorry for what I've done. I wish I could turn back times and .....
But, if I were not doing the reckless mistakes back then, would I be the one who regrets and learn from the mistakes? Sometimes, I feel like I wanna die because I am so angry with what happen in my past. Blaming myself but Allah wanted us to succeed. HE always wanna see us succeed.
Ever since Kh said that I like to use people, play sympathy, manipulate people ................
I am so afraid to make any step to move forward. I became so scared to even in approaching and seeking advice from other people.
Ever since Mz choose to hide the truth and let me take all the blame from his gf, I became more scared to even start a conversation with strangers as well as making new friends.
When I am scared, I am panic, when I'm panic, I tend to not doing anything but to sleep and calming my feelings and all the things that people had done or what I've did that they decide to act like that towards me, it makes me sick and tired. I cannot simply share this with anyone. I am the anchor of my family. Also in my degree life, I nearly putting myself at the edge of a very problematic crisis. Luckily, with some advises. I manage to quit dengan berat hati but I had to let it go.
When, I lose many things and forgot Allah, I waste my times mostly with tears during night. Crying myself to sleep. Regardless, I still have to keep my positives vibes around others because it is for the sake of people to think that I am capable to run small business and share the good values with others.
Even though I am not perfect yet but I passionately share what could benefits my friends and others. But, when I am in excruciating hard times and thinking about it so much, I couldn't help and losing my confidence to do anything.
This struggles however, I am still on it and fight it slowly and fiercely. Cikgu Khalillah and Kak Ira were my savior sent by Allah for me to keep walking and do something for my future. I may lose many friends for the next year but I may had did keep the one who truly care about me close.
I am so thankful for that Ya Allah. All the relatives wondering about my future. It is because I keep changing it since 2012, started from Diploma in Accountancy, Diploma in Medical Assistant, Foundation in Sciences and Technology and I am closely to be one of the MBBS's graduates.
Allah plans is not what I've plan. I ended up doing Diploma in Islamic Studies with scholarship and now doing Islamic Finance.
Potential. I can do many things but not a pro for everything yet. I hope that one day, all the people in my past could forgive me. While I will continue surviving for me and my family. Not to forget my talents in musics. I manage to have class and pay it myself. It is for my satisfaction. Entertaining myself and my beloved ones.
For now, I cannot move around much coz my knee is not in well yet. Today, I will start another new list. New day means new beginning. :) InsyaAllah.
I know that it is impossible to convince my old friends that I am no longer the Moon that was so childish and cannot control my anger. Attached with only certain people. My secondary school's life physically look so amusing but it is actually abusing me and my heart did not get the help that it needs. That time I was so arrogant and always look down to others. If my old friends are reading this, I am truly sorry for what I've done. I wish I could turn back times and .....
But, if I were not doing the reckless mistakes back then, would I be the one who regrets and learn from the mistakes? Sometimes, I feel like I wanna die because I am so angry with what happen in my past. Blaming myself but Allah wanted us to succeed. HE always wanna see us succeed.
Ever since Kh said that I like to use people, play sympathy, manipulate people ................
I am so afraid to make any step to move forward. I became so scared to even in approaching and seeking advice from other people.
Ever since Mz choose to hide the truth and let me take all the blame from his gf, I became more scared to even start a conversation with strangers as well as making new friends.
When I am scared, I am panic, when I'm panic, I tend to not doing anything but to sleep and calming my feelings and all the things that people had done or what I've did that they decide to act like that towards me, it makes me sick and tired. I cannot simply share this with anyone. I am the anchor of my family. Also in my degree life, I nearly putting myself at the edge of a very problematic crisis. Luckily, with some advises. I manage to quit dengan berat hati but I had to let it go.
When, I lose many things and forgot Allah, I waste my times mostly with tears during night. Crying myself to sleep. Regardless, I still have to keep my positives vibes around others because it is for the sake of people to think that I am capable to run small business and share the good values with others.
Even though I am not perfect yet but I passionately share what could benefits my friends and others. But, when I am in excruciating hard times and thinking about it so much, I couldn't help and losing my confidence to do anything.
This struggles however, I am still on it and fight it slowly and fiercely. Cikgu Khalillah and Kak Ira were my savior sent by Allah for me to keep walking and do something for my future. I may lose many friends for the next year but I may had did keep the one who truly care about me close.
I am so thankful for that Ya Allah. All the relatives wondering about my future. It is because I keep changing it since 2012, started from Diploma in Accountancy, Diploma in Medical Assistant, Foundation in Sciences and Technology and I am closely to be one of the MBBS's graduates.
Allah plans is not what I've plan. I ended up doing Diploma in Islamic Studies with scholarship and now doing Islamic Finance.
Potential. I can do many things but not a pro for everything yet. I hope that one day, all the people in my past could forgive me. While I will continue surviving for me and my family. Not to forget my talents in musics. I manage to have class and pay it myself. It is for my satisfaction. Entertaining myself and my beloved ones.
For now, I cannot move around much coz my knee is not in well yet. Today, I will start another new list. New day means new beginning. :) InsyaAllah.
Mikhael with his new life
So do I, little man.
Mama is so angry with him today because he carelessly doing an unapologetic things regarding his hygienic matter. I cannot explain and describe it here because he is 10 years old and all the punishments that given by the mother is for your own sake my dear. Why and why you use the curtains to wipe the mess o_o . You are so helpless when mama is mad and very angry. I'm sorry couldn't help. I believe that one day you are going to remember that moment when yeah, everyone is really shocked of what you did my dear. I'm glad that you confess. I know honesty is the best policy but it also can harm you too Mikhael. Yes, with us, please be true but kalau nak selamat kat luar sana, I pray that you'll be a licik guy too.
Ya Allah please strength my heart and to take care of my siblings .....
Mama is so angry with him today because he carelessly doing an unapologetic things regarding his hygienic matter. I cannot explain and describe it here because he is 10 years old and all the punishments that given by the mother is for your own sake my dear. Why and why you use the curtains to wipe the mess o_o . You are so helpless when mama is mad and very angry. I'm sorry couldn't help. I believe that one day you are going to remember that moment when yeah, everyone is really shocked of what you did my dear. I'm glad that you confess. I know honesty is the best policy but it also can harm you too Mikhael. Yes, with us, please be true but kalau nak selamat kat luar sana, I pray that you'll be a licik guy too.
Ya Allah please strength my heart and to take care of my siblings .....
Saturday, June 23
Me
Today, I try to recognize the process of when did I decide that I am not okay.
First, I got all the things or a list of what I have to do. It is many. After meeting or find about where I have to start. I'm scared. When I'm scared, I do not want to move. I want to stay still and doing nothing. When I'm scared, I forgot to believe. When I stop believing. My heart breaks as I felt useless.
But, Alhamdulillah, Allah The Most Loving gives me an inspiration to do not stay at the 'scared and useless phase.' Work it out. But do not stop believe in myself. Think about Allah so that I can carry on. When I think about to stop and exclude myself from people, I must bare in mind to have faith in Allah. Stop being a paranoid to my own self. Pray and work it out. Tawakkal.
Thank you Allah. For always here. Taking care of me. I love you.
First, I got all the things or a list of what I have to do. It is many. After meeting or find about where I have to start. I'm scared. When I'm scared, I do not want to move. I want to stay still and doing nothing. When I'm scared, I forgot to believe. When I stop believing. My heart breaks as I felt useless.
But, Alhamdulillah, Allah The Most Loving gives me an inspiration to do not stay at the 'scared and useless phase.' Work it out. But do not stop believe in myself. Think about Allah so that I can carry on. When I think about to stop and exclude myself from people, I must bare in mind to have faith in Allah. Stop being a paranoid to my own self. Pray and work it out. Tawakkal.
Thank you Allah. For always here. Taking care of me. I love you.
Rain and I'm reading
Well, my tutor said that .. lack of reading results in poor language skills.. :/
Here the list of what I read just now.
The articles mostly came from mindbodygreen.com
1. Bee is in danger hahaha.
The @wholesfood instagram account held a campaign for bee. It is because, last year, the bees was added to the endangered species list for the first time! They think the main reason is because of the large-scale of using pesticide. Sad.
2. Is it okay if your kids playing alone?
Yeah. It is okay but make sure that they can reach you when they needed you. They might be growing up as introvert person but maybe they just need a little me time. Macam kitalah.
3. tbc
Here the list of what I read just now.
The articles mostly came from mindbodygreen.com
1. Bee is in danger hahaha.
The @wholesfood instagram account held a campaign for bee. It is because, last year, the bees was added to the endangered species list for the first time! They think the main reason is because of the large-scale of using pesticide. Sad.
2. Is it okay if your kids playing alone?
Yeah. It is okay but make sure that they can reach you when they needed you. They might be growing up as introvert person but maybe they just need a little me time. Macam kitalah.
3. tbc
Friday, June 22
Raya Kelapan and cheering for UBIS Netball team.
All the best Ika and the rest. I wish I could join all of you there.
My injury belum baik. and I don't know bila nak pergi Orthopedic. My cousins said that it's probably the common sports injury kat bahagian lutut and hopefully not needing a surgery.
I still praying like this because it is painful to standing up after position duduk. Ya Allah, let them kekalkan kejuaraan kat MIAT.
Ya Allah, thank you for everything.
Kak Ira dah kembali calling for appointment. Jumpa for training. I have to brush up my social skills nampaknya sebab lepas ni gonna deal with many people.
Icha, already in KL and will having me this Sunday for her English class. This little girl is really a clever and the a smart one. Her pronunciation probably better than me. I am just a little help for her in order to obtain A for her English paper. I need to prepare for tomorrow.
My injury belum baik. and I don't know bila nak pergi Orthopedic. My cousins said that it's probably the common sports injury kat bahagian lutut and hopefully not needing a surgery.
I still praying like this because it is painful to standing up after position duduk. Ya Allah, let them kekalkan kejuaraan kat MIAT.
Ya Allah, thank you for everything.
Kak Ira dah kembali calling for appointment. Jumpa for training. I have to brush up my social skills nampaknya sebab lepas ni gonna deal with many people.
Icha, already in KL and will having me this Sunday for her English class. This little girl is really a clever and the a smart one. Her pronunciation probably better than me. I am just a little help for her in order to obtain A for her English paper. I need to prepare for tomorrow.
Raya Ketujuh and Spotify
I cried. Haha. Finding a real friend nowadays is challenging. If you still have them you are lucky. If you have them but they betray you then it is no longer consider a best friendship and it might turn it to a stranger.
Irfan however asking for my Spotify account which I do not have idea that it has following and followed functions. We can also see what's song that our friend was listening.
We can tell a lot about a person by looking at their playlist and that is actually scare me a little bit.
I hope Irfan tak fikir terlalu banyak about my songs preferences sebab kebanyakannya .... it is in a sad mode.
Also, I made a new one because I do not like my full name displayed at the Spotify and it was funny sebab I macam noob and memang noob pon kat Spotify.
Enjoying the Spotify and I got a friend who shares his exquisite taste in his songs too. Yeay!
Thank you Allah. This is fun! Haha. If you guys had one, sharelah dengan I okay :D
Irfan however asking for my Spotify account which I do not have idea that it has following and followed functions. We can also see what's song that our friend was listening.
We can tell a lot about a person by looking at their playlist and that is actually scare me a little bit.
I hope Irfan tak fikir terlalu banyak about my songs preferences sebab kebanyakannya .... it is in a sad mode.
Also, I made a new one because I do not like my full name displayed at the Spotify and it was funny sebab I macam noob and memang noob pon kat Spotify.
Enjoying the Spotify and I got a friend who shares his exquisite taste in his songs too. Yeay!
Thank you Allah. This is fun! Haha. If you guys had one, sharelah dengan I okay :D
Raya Kelima
Selasa with adik is the best. Adik is my muse. She is cute and funny. She is also a person that I always look up and talk about our life. She is an amazing person and I pray that she will be with someone who will never betray her. Someone who loves her passionately. She deserves that.
It's gonna take a longer time juga for me to forget the one who treat her bad. Go away. Go.
Okay, raya kelima, it was a swimming learning sessions for Mikhael.
Me, adik and Mikhael was in a pool for about 2 hours and swim like baby fishes yang baru nak belajar berenang tu haha. It was fun because Mikhael bravely let his pelampung and selam dalam air for many times. I am proud and grateful as well. Thank you Allah.
I am so happy when he confidently holding his breath and go deep down into the water and macam a normal swimmer lah haha. He can do it.
I was so sleepy after that and when we arrived home. I terus lay down. haha maybe sebab tak cukup oksigen. Maybe I am so tired because of the never ending journey and swimming activity.
Ya Allah, I am so grateful with my family. I am blessed. We are not super rich but I am happy that we can still be together, be there for each other and had enough food and everything. Alhamdulillah.
Ya Allah, jadikanlah kami, orang-orang yang bersyukur.
It's gonna take a longer time juga for me to forget the one who treat her bad. Go away. Go.
Okay, raya kelima, it was a swimming learning sessions for Mikhael.
Me, adik and Mikhael was in a pool for about 2 hours and swim like baby fishes yang baru nak belajar berenang tu haha. It was fun because Mikhael bravely let his pelampung and selam dalam air for many times. I am proud and grateful as well. Thank you Allah.
I am so happy when he confidently holding his breath and go deep down into the water and macam a normal swimmer lah haha. He can do it.
I was so sleepy after that and when we arrived home. I terus lay down. haha maybe sebab tak cukup oksigen. Maybe I am so tired because of the never ending journey and swimming activity.
Ya Allah, I am so grateful with my family. I am blessed. We are not super rich but I am happy that we can still be together, be there for each other and had enough food and everything. Alhamdulillah.
Ya Allah, jadikanlah kami, orang-orang yang bersyukur.
Raya Keempat
Raya keempat memang beraya dalam kereta sebab dari KL ke Ipoh lalu Jalan Cameron Highland untuk ke Kuala Lumpur.
Pak Ngah Azahari as usual suka sangat dengan ayam spicy Mcd yang ayah belikan. But his health is not as good as before. Ayah said it was the side effects from his medication. Pak Ngah is 63 years old this year. Nak dekat sebaya dengan Malaysia.
This journey is a very important to me as I am fighting my kesian for orang and choose to be kejam a little bit and selamat jalan untuk orang-orang yang telah detected as a very toxical person. Haaa ambek kau.
Okay. Biar sampai situ je. I am not angry anymore but to trust a person like that, emmm, it's gonna take masa yang pangjang gila-gila.
Then, naik ke Cameron wow, I was looking forward for my strawberries and ubi rebus yang manis-manis tu. The temperature was cooler lah of coz dari KL. I wish I can stay there untuk lebih lama haha. But, singgah kejap je. I did found my sweet potatoes and strawberries with mama. While ayah patiently driving for us sampailah ke KL.
It is easy to let go. yang susahnya, to fight regrets je. But, what for. Walk away from people who never care about your well being. I mean, it is not that I asingkan diri dari kawan-kawan yang busy dengan life diorang.
Busy dengan kehidupan masing-masing berbeza dengan busy nak tengok kita tak dapat apa yang kita perlukan. Semoga Allah jauhkan kita dari menjadi orang seperti itu. Seriknya.
But yeah, they deserve it. Cukuplah selama ini. Hati ini masih terluka and may Allah fix it InsyaAllah.
REMEMBER, apabila terbau bahaya di hadapan. Cuba untuk elak. :)
Take care.
Pak Ngah Azahari as usual suka sangat dengan ayam spicy Mcd yang ayah belikan. But his health is not as good as before. Ayah said it was the side effects from his medication. Pak Ngah is 63 years old this year. Nak dekat sebaya dengan Malaysia.
This journey is a very important to me as I am fighting my kesian for orang and choose to be kejam a little bit and selamat jalan untuk orang-orang yang telah detected as a very toxical person. Haaa ambek kau.
Okay. Biar sampai situ je. I am not angry anymore but to trust a person like that, emmm, it's gonna take masa yang pangjang gila-gila.
Then, naik ke Cameron wow, I was looking forward for my strawberries and ubi rebus yang manis-manis tu. The temperature was cooler lah of coz dari KL. I wish I can stay there untuk lebih lama haha. But, singgah kejap je. I did found my sweet potatoes and strawberries with mama. While ayah patiently driving for us sampailah ke KL.
It is easy to let go. yang susahnya, to fight regrets je. But, what for. Walk away from people who never care about your well being. I mean, it is not that I asingkan diri dari kawan-kawan yang busy dengan life diorang.
Busy dengan kehidupan masing-masing berbeza dengan busy nak tengok kita tak dapat apa yang kita perlukan. Semoga Allah jauhkan kita dari menjadi orang seperti itu. Seriknya.
But yeah, they deserve it. Cukuplah selama ini. Hati ini masih terluka and may Allah fix it InsyaAllah.
REMEMBER, apabila terbau bahaya di hadapan. Cuba untuk elak. :)
Take care.
Raya Ketiga with geng kesayangan
Walaupun di dapur dengan Mak Tam but Syafiq and Shahir datang haha. Tahu, they were not as excited as I am coz yelah, they got kampung at Melaka and got their boys and girls cousins kat sana haha but .. to me they were my precious childhood.
Happy that both of them membesar menjadi orang yang disegani.
Always rasa kecil bila lepak dengan diorang.
Nenek, 82 years old if I was not mistaken. Terlantar at katil and tak boleh bercakap dah. Keadaan dah seperti bayi yang tidak berdosa. (:
Ayah kepenatan drive and tidur sebelah mak dia. Ayah, dia tak banyak cakap. I mean that he is an actual a silence people. Bercakap bila perlu and it is very contradict with me haha. But Ayah's gesture always win orang sekeliling. Expressing how much he cares and appreciates us. Lovely!
Paklang pula yang always garang sebab dia polis. Haha. He is always my idol of being clever, successful and garang.
Maisarah and Maryam pulak happy sebab dapat reunite dengan sepupu kesayangan diorang. Geng main gamelah katakan. They look so happy and my mom pulak mengawasi I kat dapur and membocorkan almost 80% of my kegagalan of controlling the dapur kat rumah sendiri kepada Mak Tam. Helpless. Senyap jelah aku hahaha. Mak Tam pulak flashback her love story sebelum Pak Tam masuk meminang dia. Percintaan zaman dulu2 main lambai2 tangan je 5 minit. Tulis2 surat. Hahaha.
Mak Tam also paling kelakar masa ambik gambar.
As Mak Tam is a teacher kat sekolah, kitorang pun jadi murid dia time bergambar tu haha. SATU, DUAAA, TIGAA. Haha dengan gaya 1 Malaysia lah, Dap yang tak jadi sebab tak syariah compliance, last2 buat tunjuk thumbs up ke apa entah.
Rindu semua orang :')
Unfortunately, adik tak ikut sebab kerja. However, Raya Keempat kita plan pergi Ipoh pulak haha. Nak jenguk Pak Ngah Azahari.
Till then.
Happy that both of them membesar menjadi orang yang disegani.
Always rasa kecil bila lepak dengan diorang.
Nenek, 82 years old if I was not mistaken. Terlantar at katil and tak boleh bercakap dah. Keadaan dah seperti bayi yang tidak berdosa. (:
Ayah kepenatan drive and tidur sebelah mak dia. Ayah, dia tak banyak cakap. I mean that he is an actual a silence people. Bercakap bila perlu and it is very contradict with me haha. But Ayah's gesture always win orang sekeliling. Expressing how much he cares and appreciates us. Lovely!
Paklang pula yang always garang sebab dia polis. Haha. He is always my idol of being clever, successful and garang.
Maisarah and Maryam pulak happy sebab dapat reunite dengan sepupu kesayangan diorang. Geng main gamelah katakan. They look so happy and my mom pulak mengawasi I kat dapur and membocorkan almost 80% of my kegagalan of controlling the dapur kat rumah sendiri kepada Mak Tam. Helpless. Senyap jelah aku hahaha. Mak Tam pulak flashback her love story sebelum Pak Tam masuk meminang dia. Percintaan zaman dulu2 main lambai2 tangan je 5 minit. Tulis2 surat. Hahaha.
Mak Tam also paling kelakar masa ambik gambar.
As Mak Tam is a teacher kat sekolah, kitorang pun jadi murid dia time bergambar tu haha. SATU, DUAAA, TIGAA. Haha dengan gaya 1 Malaysia lah, Dap yang tak jadi sebab tak syariah compliance, last2 buat tunjuk thumbs up ke apa entah.
Rindu semua orang :')
Unfortunately, adik tak ikut sebab kerja. However, Raya Keempat kita plan pergi Ipoh pulak haha. Nak jenguk Pak Ngah Azahari.
Till then.
Friday, June 15
A friend,his playlist for my Raya and
Do you remember about my friend Irfan? The genius one but felt he has a lonely life?
He got a very good taste of music too.. not tooo mention his interest for arts, dia pernah pakai dp from his own karya.
Baru-baru ni, he shared his playlist on his stories, the 1st one is Game Changer and the 2nd one is Nebular.
I spend my time yesterday and listened to them. Game Changer was cool but Nebular bring me to somewhere that I still can't figure it where.
I told Irfan that I really like the Nebular one and he's flattered maybe because someone likes his playlist. I should thank you Irfan.
Your talents is yes one of the best thing that I've had discovered in my life but having a friend who can really talk and consider me as one of ur listener that you can trust is the thing. I'm grateful for that Ya Allah.
He even shared his dreams that okay, let me kept it as secret and pray that he can still go for that. May Allah ease and I hope you don't give up.
To be honest, this eid is not like the previous eid. . I should be grateful.. It is just my longing for someone who can't be and do not want to be with me anymore .. It makes me sad, I know why. I'm a fool. I tried to reach him without asking help from anyone and I failed.
It's okay. It's fine. Hey, I got new playlist right, a family, a place where I can lay myself at, friends whom I considered home and Icha, my UPSR's student.
I got very caring cousins, bestfriends, boss, khanqah and I got a keyboard too.
I'll be fine. This war in my head Ya Allah, I beg that you let me win it. . InsyaAllah.
He got a very good taste of music too.. not tooo mention his interest for arts, dia pernah pakai dp from his own karya.
Baru-baru ni, he shared his playlist on his stories, the 1st one is Game Changer and the 2nd one is Nebular.
I spend my time yesterday and listened to them. Game Changer was cool but Nebular bring me to somewhere that I still can't figure it where.
I told Irfan that I really like the Nebular one and he's flattered maybe because someone likes his playlist. I should thank you Irfan.
Your talents is yes one of the best thing that I've had discovered in my life but having a friend who can really talk and consider me as one of ur listener that you can trust is the thing. I'm grateful for that Ya Allah.
He even shared his dreams that okay, let me kept it as secret and pray that he can still go for that. May Allah ease and I hope you don't give up.
To be honest, this eid is not like the previous eid. . I should be grateful.. It is just my longing for someone who can't be and do not want to be with me anymore .. It makes me sad, I know why. I'm a fool. I tried to reach him without asking help from anyone and I failed.
It's okay. It's fine. Hey, I got new playlist right, a family, a place where I can lay myself at, friends whom I considered home and Icha, my UPSR's student.
I got very caring cousins, bestfriends, boss, khanqah and I got a keyboard too.
I'll be fine. This war in my head Ya Allah, I beg that you let me win it. . InsyaAllah.
Alhamdulillah it is 1st Syawal!
Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri.
Terima kasih Allah, dalam keadaan aku sihat dan selamat bersama keluarga. Engkau kurniakan sebuah Syawal yang sederhana. Aku sebenarnya tidaklah terlalu gembira dengan pemergian Ramadhan. Aku merasakan bahawasl Ramadhan ku sebelum ini adalah lebih bernyawa berbanding kali ini. Semoga Engkau ampun segala dosa aku Ya Allah.
Mak Uda sekeluarga datang :) Dapat duit raya :) Mama paling happy sebab dapat buat kuah kacang. Foods? Raya ni complete sangat. Mama masak almost all Raya dishes. I am amazed by semangat raya mama. Sorry if not being so much of your help but I helped at least haha. Mama I love you.
While Adik terpaksa kerja on the first eid kat Secret Recipe. Well, siap2 cantik2 and berbaju Raya, beraya kat sana. Adik, kita sama-sama tak kuat dan mengharap pinjamaman kekuatan dari Allah. Kakak doakan adik tabah menghadapi semua ni.
I'm sorry sebab tak jadi Kakak yang baik in your life.
Kakak still trying to clean my mess and at the same time being the good eldest. Mending my broken pieces and at the same time moving to what is the best for me.
I hope, just one thing. I can die bila hutang Mara and Ptptn Settle. . Etc.. Moga Allah Redha dan kabulkan. I love you..
I miss Him and his messenger. Till then.
Terima kasih Allah, dalam keadaan aku sihat dan selamat bersama keluarga. Engkau kurniakan sebuah Syawal yang sederhana. Aku sebenarnya tidaklah terlalu gembira dengan pemergian Ramadhan. Aku merasakan bahawasl Ramadhan ku sebelum ini adalah lebih bernyawa berbanding kali ini. Semoga Engkau ampun segala dosa aku Ya Allah.
Mak Uda sekeluarga datang :) Dapat duit raya :) Mama paling happy sebab dapat buat kuah kacang. Foods? Raya ni complete sangat. Mama masak almost all Raya dishes. I am amazed by semangat raya mama. Sorry if not being so much of your help but I helped at least haha. Mama I love you.
While Adik terpaksa kerja on the first eid kat Secret Recipe. Well, siap2 cantik2 and berbaju Raya, beraya kat sana. Adik, kita sama-sama tak kuat dan mengharap pinjamaman kekuatan dari Allah. Kakak doakan adik tabah menghadapi semua ni.
I'm sorry sebab tak jadi Kakak yang baik in your life.
Kakak still trying to clean my mess and at the same time being the good eldest. Mending my broken pieces and at the same time moving to what is the best for me.
I hope, just one thing. I can die bila hutang Mara and Ptptn Settle. . Etc.. Moga Allah Redha dan kabulkan. I love you..
I miss Him and his messenger. Till then.
Sunday, June 10
Eddy at Sabah yeay
Lepas jawab paper Takaful tu, bergegas ke tempat kerja adik and nampaklah dia baru duduk kat tempat cashier tu..
with all her cakes hahaha..
then, baliklah rumah and teringat Farah cerita pasal Eddy.
I was like, exam pun dah habis.. maybe.. aku call lah dia.. tp tak berani pun haha.. sempat missed called je..
and dia pun call back Alhamdulillah sempar catch up sikit je..
Raya ni baru dia balik KL. Itupun sekejap je. Selamat bekerjalah kat sana and take care..
Nanti mesti jumpa wanita-wanita Filipina yang cun cun dan baik hati.. InsyaAllah Aminn..
Semoga berjaya selalu!
with all her cakes hahaha..
then, baliklah rumah and teringat Farah cerita pasal Eddy.
I was like, exam pun dah habis.. maybe.. aku call lah dia.. tp tak berani pun haha.. sempat missed called je..
and dia pun call back Alhamdulillah sempar catch up sikit je..
Raya ni baru dia balik KL. Itupun sekejap je. Selamat bekerjalah kat sana and take care..
Nanti mesti jumpa wanita-wanita Filipina yang cun cun dan baik hati.. InsyaAllah Aminn..
Semoga berjaya selalu!
Takaful January 2018 - June Final Goodbye
Alhamdulillah, apa yang aku ulangkaji, semuanya masuk.. harap kawan-kawan aku boleh jawab juga coz dah prepare discuss pasal past year and etc..
Periksa sebelah Yosh.. Dia baru je kehilangan mama dia.. hope dia tabah..
A day before exam takaful tu, aku, farah and nadia yasmin belajar takaful sama-sama.
Geng belajar tiga orang yang sangatlah efektif haha. Entah macam mana nak survive lepas ni tanpa diorang. Sedih pulaklah.
Kebbei dengan tak habis-habis tanya apa yang masuk, apa yang tak masuk. Hahaha.
Farhan dengan tak cukup past year 2016, suruh buat 2017 pulak.. Haha
Masa periksa tu, Shammir duk depan aku, striking gila warna kuning sweater dia hahaha.. dahlah sebaris dengan Aiman y berbaju merah menyala hahaha.. Aku perhati je diorang duk senyum-senyum sesama diorang hahaha.. dahlah sorang timur.. sorang barat.. nasib baik memang kena senyap dalam kelas tu.. haha
Cepat juga.klah aku habiskan jawab exam tu.. dah tak sabar nak bangun.. haha.. nampak Farah Nadiah kemas-kemas .. aku pun siap-siap nak terus bangun..
and before exam tu, Irfan sempat wish good luck and Zana pulak baru je merdeka haha.. Happylah dia nak balik JB ngn mama dia.. Amalina Halim pula warded sebab dah nak beranak dah..
Alhamdulillah.. May Allah ease everything for them...
Periksa sebelah Yosh.. Dia baru je kehilangan mama dia.. hope dia tabah..
A day before exam takaful tu, aku, farah and nadia yasmin belajar takaful sama-sama.
Geng belajar tiga orang yang sangatlah efektif haha. Entah macam mana nak survive lepas ni tanpa diorang. Sedih pulaklah.
Kebbei dengan tak habis-habis tanya apa yang masuk, apa yang tak masuk. Hahaha.
Farhan dengan tak cukup past year 2016, suruh buat 2017 pulak.. Haha
Masa periksa tu, Shammir duk depan aku, striking gila warna kuning sweater dia hahaha.. dahlah sebaris dengan Aiman y berbaju merah menyala hahaha.. Aku perhati je diorang duk senyum-senyum sesama diorang hahaha.. dahlah sorang timur.. sorang barat.. nasib baik memang kena senyap dalam kelas tu.. haha
Cepat juga.klah aku habiskan jawab exam tu.. dah tak sabar nak bangun.. haha.. nampak Farah Nadiah kemas-kemas .. aku pun siap-siap nak terus bangun..
and before exam tu, Irfan sempat wish good luck and Zana pulak baru je merdeka haha.. Happylah dia nak balik JB ngn mama dia.. Amalina Halim pula warded sebab dah nak beranak dah..
Alhamdulillah.. May Allah ease everything for them...
Tuesday, June 5
Isnin untuk Business Law
I never thought that I will revise this subject happily. Maybe I am so good with history, law or maybe I like them. Haha. I realized that I love the part of saying under this.. this.. this.. or.. provisions of section 4 of bla bla bla hhahaha.
I arrived at the campus around 7.30 am and waiting for Athirah to lend me some acts for my Business Law. Along with Athirah, of course her two bodyguard always around Azhar and Mansor. While they are studying their Strategic Management, I am reading my Business Law.
Actually, I have a little problem. I do not have the Companies Act and has to look around for the act..
Unfortunately, the bookshop down there are not opened yet because Abang Mi is late. However, I manage to get it at Jalan Tar .. Alhamdulillah, Pustaka Mukmin has opened and I can now doing more with that act haha.
Then, bumped into Badrul and we study together for the Business Law. Later then, Rahman join us.
Because we are making some noises while memorizing, the Kakak Pustaka a bit angry and she.. she Ssssh everyone and ... we laughed and giggled... oh no.. sorry kakak.. hehe..
Then, Badrul immediately asking us to get out from the library and go to the study lounge and I gather around with Badrul's gang AGAIN. Macam last semester. They are so well prepared and sangat suka study punya orang. I am so lucky to have them. The discussion about the case also was a little bit intense. Khai do not has a good mood, Rahman was still clueless, Najib then came and read Afiq's tips.
Before enter the examination hall, Iman also with Danial were outside and discussing something with our clueless Rahman hahaha.
Iman's sit is beside me. He also sempat to borrow my companies act. hahaha.
Maisarah pulak, Mas is helping me to book Grab for her coz I am in the middle of the exam.
Hakimah also should come to give my biscuits. But she could not manage it because, she was busy with her intern report... I will always pray the best for you Hakimah.. do not give up my love.
So, Badrul did not get the biscuits but InsyaAllah I will give him tomorrow. Wednesday.
Berbuka puasa today with Zana. We had discussions on how to be more educated and prepared for the reality and industry after this. Unbelievable, we are now 24 years old. She also fall for Nur drama. It was so full of pengajaran and sedih ;') Zana akan convo tahun ni yeayyyy!
InsyaAllah next year, I'll be graduating.
Hopefully, my graduation serentak dengan gang Principle of Management haha.
Till then,
I arrived at the campus around 7.30 am and waiting for Athirah to lend me some acts for my Business Law. Along with Athirah, of course her two bodyguard always around Azhar and Mansor. While they are studying their Strategic Management, I am reading my Business Law.
Actually, I have a little problem. I do not have the Companies Act and has to look around for the act..
Unfortunately, the bookshop down there are not opened yet because Abang Mi is late. However, I manage to get it at Jalan Tar .. Alhamdulillah, Pustaka Mukmin has opened and I can now doing more with that act haha.
Then, bumped into Badrul and we study together for the Business Law. Later then, Rahman join us.
Because we are making some noises while memorizing, the Kakak Pustaka a bit angry and she.. she Ssssh everyone and ... we laughed and giggled... oh no.. sorry kakak.. hehe..
Then, Badrul immediately asking us to get out from the library and go to the study lounge and I gather around with Badrul's gang AGAIN. Macam last semester. They are so well prepared and sangat suka study punya orang. I am so lucky to have them. The discussion about the case also was a little bit intense. Khai do not has a good mood, Rahman was still clueless, Najib then came and read Afiq's tips.
Before enter the examination hall, Iman also with Danial were outside and discussing something with our clueless Rahman hahaha.
Iman's sit is beside me. He also sempat to borrow my companies act. hahaha.
Maisarah pulak, Mas is helping me to book Grab for her coz I am in the middle of the exam.
Hakimah also should come to give my biscuits. But she could not manage it because, she was busy with her intern report... I will always pray the best for you Hakimah.. do not give up my love.
So, Badrul did not get the biscuits but InsyaAllah I will give him tomorrow. Wednesday.
Berbuka puasa today with Zana. We had discussions on how to be more educated and prepared for the reality and industry after this. Unbelievable, we are now 24 years old. She also fall for Nur drama. It was so full of pengajaran and sedih ;') Zana akan convo tahun ni yeayyyy!
InsyaAllah next year, I'll be graduating.
Hopefully, my graduation serentak dengan gang Principle of Management haha.
Till then,
Saturday, June 2
Just shut up and read
while viewing my friend's story, found this and by all means .. I am reading right now haha
Friday, June 1
Painful
my knee is secretly crying.. as I started to pray normaly, coz I thought dia dah sembuh.. unfortunately, when I use my knee like before I injured.. I'm sorry that tiba2 ..you could feel that one of your urat under your knee is bengkak and berdenyut2..
Muka susah nak senyum sebab sakit but kalau tak senyum.. mcm mana nak cari rezeki kan? :')
Sabar ye!!!!!!
Please hang on until I finished my exams.
*slowly comforting my heart to slowly keep doing whatever I need to do to become better
If nobody couldn't understand you, be strong and be patience
Muka susah nak senyum sebab sakit but kalau tak senyum.. mcm mana nak cari rezeki kan? :')
Sabar ye!!!!!!
Please hang on until I finished my exams.
*slowly comforting my heart to slowly keep doing whatever I need to do to become better
If nobody couldn't understand you, be strong and be patience
Monday, May 28
Nur Episod 9 :')
Doing daawah on TV and on the streets it's two different thing, and has different impact..
If you go to the ground, to the alleys
It helps us to understand what they are going through..
It's two way communication..
On TV or other forms of media, that is doing daawah with one way communication.
I can just give out hukum directly .. but those who listens could turn out to be a judgemental society..
who only knows how to judge and never seek to understand..
while Islam itself it is all about IHSAN.. It is not a judgemental religion as what most people are perceiving now...
If you go to the ground, to the alleys
It helps us to understand what they are going through..
It's two way communication..
On TV or other forms of media, that is doing daawah with one way communication.
I can just give out hukum directly .. but those who listens could turn out to be a judgemental society..
who only knows how to judge and never seek to understand..
while Islam itself it is all about IHSAN.. It is not a judgemental religion as what most people are perceiving now...
No more tears :)
Alhamdulillah for today, it started off so well.
Bangun awal untuk ke kampus sebab Farah ajak study Innovation Management.
Borak punya borak, I told her that I lost contact with Eddy. And she knows where is Eddy now because Najib told her.
Najib then come to the library to study ICM with Farah. While I'm busy finishing my simple ke laut but functional last minutes notes haha for the revision..
Najib then lepak while Farah and I had a discussions about the subjects haha. Farah is unbelievably funny. Then, I asked Najib, where is Eddy?
He said Eddy is not at semenanjung and tengah bisnes kat sana. I said, well did he changed his number? Pastu boleh pulak Najib asking me this question, "Kau minat Eddy ke?" HAHAHAHA
Tergamam aku kat situ. Like.. heyy.. how do we know whether kita suka ke apa ke sebab I dah lupa benda2 macam ni hahaha. I said 'Well, masa aku sem 1, sem 2, aku mana ada kawan sgt, dia jelah kawan aku, sayang arr.. kawan kan'
Farah gelak je and Najib terus ws dia hahaha. He said nanti lepas Rayalah Eddy dtg jumpa diorang semua. Hahaha. Baguslah. Najib siap gurau, nanti dia balik dia nak terus masuk minang kau eh. Gurau gurau. Bongok Najib ni hahaha.
After he left, Farah then asked me, takkanlah takde sikitpun perasaan?
Haha. I said, I don't know. I forgot how does it feel.. hahaha
So, we continue doing our revision. Maigaad.. Inno Management is demmit so much to remember aiyo.
Thank you Allah. I am thankful for today.
May You ease both of us in our final exam. ❤
Bangun awal untuk ke kampus sebab Farah ajak study Innovation Management.
Borak punya borak, I told her that I lost contact with Eddy. And she knows where is Eddy now because Najib told her.
Najib then come to the library to study ICM with Farah. While I'm busy finishing my simple ke laut but functional last minutes notes haha for the revision..
Najib then lepak while Farah and I had a discussions about the subjects haha. Farah is unbelievably funny. Then, I asked Najib, where is Eddy?
He said Eddy is not at semenanjung and tengah bisnes kat sana. I said, well did he changed his number? Pastu boleh pulak Najib asking me this question, "Kau minat Eddy ke?" HAHAHAHA
Tergamam aku kat situ. Like.. heyy.. how do we know whether kita suka ke apa ke sebab I dah lupa benda2 macam ni hahaha. I said 'Well, masa aku sem 1, sem 2, aku mana ada kawan sgt, dia jelah kawan aku, sayang arr.. kawan kan'
Farah gelak je and Najib terus ws dia hahaha. He said nanti lepas Rayalah Eddy dtg jumpa diorang semua. Hahaha. Baguslah. Najib siap gurau, nanti dia balik dia nak terus masuk minang kau eh. Gurau gurau. Bongok Najib ni hahaha.
After he left, Farah then asked me, takkanlah takde sikitpun perasaan?
Haha. I said, I don't know. I forgot how does it feel.. hahaha
So, we continue doing our revision. Maigaad.. Inno Management is demmit so much to remember aiyo.
Thank you Allah. I am thankful for today.
May You ease both of us in our final exam. ❤
Sunday, May 27
Balang Biskut, Baju Raya Adik, Sarah dan Mama
So, today I manage to follow my mother and sisters ke Sri Gombak untuk beli balang biskut for our kuih tart..
Mama was so excited about the kedai named Bake Well, dalam kedai tu, I saw tauke dia, Apek tua yang sedang memberi arahan kepada pekerja2 dia. Also, ramai gila orang in that shop.
Beside the Bake Well, ada kedai buah-buahan yang sudah mula pasang lagu raya hahaha.
Lepastu geraklah ke Carrefour atau sekarang nama dia Aeon Big, ramai sangat orang. I stayed in the car. too tired untuk Window Shopping haha.
Innalillah for a family who their car had an accident masa nak cari parking. The driver tak sedarkan diri langsung and they were a lot of people stop by to help them.
Adik and Sarah luckily dah ada baju raya and no need untuk ke tempat lain..
and Mama is not feeling well masa iftar. . hopefully, it will be fine soon..
Mama was so excited about the kedai named Bake Well, dalam kedai tu, I saw tauke dia, Apek tua yang sedang memberi arahan kepada pekerja2 dia. Also, ramai gila orang in that shop.
Beside the Bake Well, ada kedai buah-buahan yang sudah mula pasang lagu raya hahaha.
Lepastu geraklah ke Carrefour atau sekarang nama dia Aeon Big, ramai sangat orang. I stayed in the car. too tired untuk Window Shopping haha.
Innalillah for a family who their car had an accident masa nak cari parking. The driver tak sedarkan diri langsung and they were a lot of people stop by to help them.
Adik and Sarah luckily dah ada baju raya and no need untuk ke tempat lain..
and Mama is not feeling well masa iftar. . hopefully, it will be fine soon..
Saturday, May 26
Irfan and his loneliness
I have a friend who seems so bright and creative but his art was explaining something else.
Last time, he wrote... Alone.
Ohh why, why and why.
The mystery of a genius friend who is still walking in my campus. Irfan.
Last time, he wrote... Alone.
Ohh why, why and why.
The mystery of a genius friend who is still walking in my campus. Irfan.
Real wins the match but Liverpool wins our heart
I love you lfc.
Aisyah: Sejak bila ni? Pergh!
Me: Sejak Mo Salah. Hahahahaha.
YNWA uuuuuu.
Aisyah: Sejak bila ni? Pergh!
Me: Sejak Mo Salah. Hahahahaha.
YNWA uuuuuu.
Aisyah, Liverpool dan ujian
Aisyah is at Kuala Lumpur now! Aisyah ada ada rombongan dengan bas at Jalan TAR. Pergh. Belum raya dah jalan2. Awesome UPSi haha.
And tonight.. Liverpool lawan Real Madrid.. hahaha.. sejak Mo Salah ada.. kita pun nam tumpang femes gak..
Then, I watched the Habib Ali Zaenal Abidin's video.. Segala ujian, dugaan adalah untuk menghapuskan dosa kita. Untuk mengangkat darjat kita dan untuk mengingatkan kita kepada Allah.
Thank you for the reminder!
And tonight.. Liverpool lawan Real Madrid.. hahaha.. sejak Mo Salah ada.. kita pun nam tumpang femes gak..
Then, I watched the Habib Ali Zaenal Abidin's video.. Segala ujian, dugaan adalah untuk menghapuskan dosa kita. Untuk mengangkat darjat kita dan untuk mengingatkan kita kepada Allah.
Thank you for the reminder!
Friday, May 25
A failed anak dara
Yeap.
I am describing me.
I am supposedly helping my mom finishing her legend tart nenas but I'm wasting my time to grieve over my pain.
Mama's got pain too and she's there.. slaying like a queen while me..
Crying, sleeping, praying but not patiently..
I'm sorry mama..
I need a little more time that I'll promise that... I promise to not to fall tonight and tomorrow I'm not sure enough to stay strong..
what a weak pathetic me..
I am describing me.
I am supposedly helping my mom finishing her legend tart nenas but I'm wasting my time to grieve over my pain.
Mama's got pain too and she's there.. slaying like a queen while me..
Crying, sleeping, praying but not patiently..
I'm sorry mama..
I need a little more time that I'll promise that... I promise to not to fall tonight and tomorrow I'm not sure enough to stay strong..
what a weak pathetic me..
Sabar
I miss Ustaz Aziz...
He said, bila ditimpa musibah.. ucapkanlah alhamdulillah..
Org beriman akan rasa manis dengan bala y menimpa..
But still, I'm scared that this is a punishment..
If this situation is the reason for my sins are to be forgiven..
Please make me be a sabr person..
This Monday, I'll be going to HKL to meet the doctor back.
and about my kazama family.. I don't think that I want... I don't know anymore..
Hang kena sentiasa bersedia untuk kehilangan benda y hang paling sayang. Kena cepat2 stabilizekan diri - Haziq Firdaus
You're not the one who are living with the pain.. you are not alone Munirah.
Be strong okay.
Aisyah also always will be there okay.
He said, bila ditimpa musibah.. ucapkanlah alhamdulillah..
Org beriman akan rasa manis dengan bala y menimpa..
But still, I'm scared that this is a punishment..
If this situation is the reason for my sins are to be forgiven..
Please make me be a sabr person..
This Monday, I'll be going to HKL to meet the doctor back.
and about my kazama family.. I don't think that I want... I don't know anymore..
Hang kena sentiasa bersedia untuk kehilangan benda y hang paling sayang. Kena cepat2 stabilizekan diri - Haziq Firdaus
You're not the one who are living with the pain.. you are not alone Munirah.
Be strong okay.
Aisyah also always will be there okay.
Dear knee, you're making me freaking out
Losing the ability to pray properly is fucking sucks.
Why don't you help me! Are you giving up on me too?
I'm even more scared of not being able to run or kicking again.
Ya Allah... what's happening... I'm so sad......
Why don't you help me! Are you giving up on me too?
I'm even more scared of not being able to run or kicking again.
Ya Allah... what's happening... I'm so sad......
maybe I am not a person
Maybe, to him, I am not a person. I am not a people. Before this, I was a friend. But, after what I did, I think he blamed me for turning myself into a stranger. He made me feel that all of this is my fault. Until I realized, maybe it is. It is my fault.
Still, I am not a person to him coz if I am, he will able to forgive or still letting me in.
Why is it so hard to forget? Why is it hard to change this feeling? Is this is what we called love? Or it is just a temporary feeling of unable to accept things the way it is?
Why do I need him? What else left to be discuss? He is not the person whom you've been talking before. He's changed.
I'm afraid that this.. what I felt inside is not what it is ..
How do we ever determine whether it is love or unsettle desire to give up?
Why do I bother if he misunderstood?
He can't understand and I should let go.
But, why every time I decided to let go,
my heart says something else.
Why do my heart believe that you'll be there soon..
You've said clearly that you hate me and hate me even more for asking what you couldn't do.
90% of me, I'm done.
But why,,, it keeps falling back to the idea of..
being somebody in ur life..
And I hope someday I'll make it out of here..
Even if it takes all night or a hundred years, - lovely
Dear The Most Loving, you knows best.
Still, I am not a person to him coz if I am, he will able to forgive or still letting me in.
Why is it so hard to forget? Why is it hard to change this feeling? Is this is what we called love? Or it is just a temporary feeling of unable to accept things the way it is?
Why do I need him? What else left to be discuss? He is not the person whom you've been talking before. He's changed.
I'm afraid that this.. what I felt inside is not what it is ..
How do we ever determine whether it is love or unsettle desire to give up?
Why do I bother if he misunderstood?
He can't understand and I should let go.
But, why every time I decided to let go,
my heart says something else.
Why do my heart believe that you'll be there soon..
You've said clearly that you hate me and hate me even more for asking what you couldn't do.
90% of me, I'm done.
But why,,, it keeps falling back to the idea of..
being somebody in ur life..
And I hope someday I'll make it out of here..
Even if it takes all night or a hundred years, - lovely
Dear The Most Loving, you knows best.
9 Ramadhan 1439, Lovely by Khalid ft Elli and be ready.
Masih di juzuk 2. Ahaa. So, today I come by my university to settle my bar form. The weather is quite bright and hot.
I also take almost 10 minutes to complete the video of self introduction for my boss. She needed that for marketing purpose of her tuition business.
my mother bought the crispy chicken with cheese sauce from kfc but I can't stand the milky cheesy taste with that oily crispy chicken and I ended up putting a lot of chili sauce on top of my chicken haha.
about the slimming or shaping cream that suggest by maksu.. the feeling of using that cream is painful haha.. it is super hot and I think my skin is aching because of the effects of the burning power from that cream.. aaaaaa.. panas woi..
I am so fall in love with Khalid's new song from 13 Reasons Why 2. The music and the lyrics is so overwhelming and remind me of my situation. I do not want to ever express my feelings directly or bluntly. I always feel that songs could work on that almost 80% and sometimes it can makes me feel relieve.
I know that not everyone who will go to check the lyrics but the right person will eventually look forward for its meaning.
and Allah's plan is always the best. I trust You. Always.
I also take almost 10 minutes to complete the video of self introduction for my boss. She needed that for marketing purpose of her tuition business.
my mother bought the crispy chicken with cheese sauce from kfc but I can't stand the milky cheesy taste with that oily crispy chicken and I ended up putting a lot of chili sauce on top of my chicken haha.
about the slimming or shaping cream that suggest by maksu.. the feeling of using that cream is painful haha.. it is super hot and I think my skin is aching because of the effects of the burning power from that cream.. aaaaaa.. panas woi..
I am so fall in love with Khalid's new song from 13 Reasons Why 2. The music and the lyrics is so overwhelming and remind me of my situation. I do not want to ever express my feelings directly or bluntly. I always feel that songs could work on that almost 80% and sometimes it can makes me feel relieve.
I know that not everyone who will go to check the lyrics but the right person will eventually look forward for its meaning.
and Allah's plan is always the best. I trust You. Always.
Thursday, May 24
I hope that my customer will never drop by here
Hi, yeah..
Being a person who promoting products for the sake of business is kind of challenging.
You cannot simply posting about how do you really felt when you are upset coz all of the prospects have to see is the positives vibes. Which, I think that I only want to express my real feelings here. Maybe my prospects shouldn't need to know about the deeper details about me but I needed my close friend to catching up with what happen to me through socmed but somehow I don't think fb,ig and twitter is the right place for me to do so. So, I ended up writing here back.
I am not happy all the time but my business or my small selling operation I guess..must have 'the happy or positives waves' so that it can help in terms of showing that I am reliable,strong, brave and okay. Building the trust is not easy.
It is not tht I pretending to be okay at the socmed. It is just an act of patience from showing how pathetic my life are sometimws. And I wish I would have never ever wanna make my friend or my prospects have this impression 'play sympathy' to me. May Allah ease.
and that's all tht I wanna tell you guys todah. Thank you for spending ur time here. I really appreciate it.
Being a person who promoting products for the sake of business is kind of challenging.
You cannot simply posting about how do you really felt when you are upset coz all of the prospects have to see is the positives vibes. Which, I think that I only want to express my real feelings here. Maybe my prospects shouldn't need to know about the deeper details about me but I needed my close friend to catching up with what happen to me through socmed but somehow I don't think fb,ig and twitter is the right place for me to do so. So, I ended up writing here back.
I am not happy all the time but my business or my small selling operation I guess..must have 'the happy or positives waves' so that it can help in terms of showing that I am reliable,strong, brave and okay. Building the trust is not easy.
It is not tht I pretending to be okay at the socmed. It is just an act of patience from showing how pathetic my life are sometimws. And I wish I would have never ever wanna make my friend or my prospects have this impression 'play sympathy' to me. May Allah ease.
and that's all tht I wanna tell you guys todah. Thank you for spending ur time here. I really appreciate it.
Salam Takziah.
I heard that one of your friend passed away, I am familiar with her name. I've seen it somewhere.
Allah loves her more.
Khae, if I be the first of us to die. . . remember that I'll never hate you.. you're always my friend..
my favorite..
know that I am so sorry for ruining our friendship..
thank you for everything..
Allah loves her more.
Khae, if I be the first of us to die. . . remember that I'll never hate you.. you're always my friend..
my favorite..
know that I am so sorry for ruining our friendship..
thank you for everything..
Wednesday, May 23
Tuesday, May 22
Selasa, Farah, Haziq, Athirah, Azhar and my last class for this semester.
Tak dapat tidur malam, and ended up tak tidur. Preparing for the presentation and get ready untuk hantar Mikhael ke sekolah.
tak pernah-pernah ready seawal itu haha. Ini semua sebab nervous nak present depan lecturer, nervous tu lain mcm, uish,
Sampai-sampai je kat Ys, I terus ke makmal komputer untuk revise apa yang dah direhearse sejak sebulan yang lalu. Our title kali ini agak senang iaitu Children Education Takaful Plan. Hah.
Isi kandungan presentation tu adalah pengenalan dia, features, underlying contract, applied concept, comparisons of products and comparisons between Takaful and Insurance in terms of Children Edu Plan.
Dalam pukul 8.00 pagi mcm tu semua dah ws masing2 haha. I ws Farah, Farah tanya pasal Haziq, and I ws Haziq. ws Athirah and Azhar and make sure semua dah gerak. Haha. Lawak betul. Kene pulak present pukul 8.30 pagi adoii.
Masuk je kelas, Sir dah masuk, Athirah and Azhar pon baru sampai, lepastu nampak Aiman and Haziq baru nak masuk kelas. Farah? Hahaha. Mana pulak dia ni haha. Sir ckp, 'saya bagi 10 minit ye, kalau dia tak sampai lagi, saya potong markah'. I dah gelabah nak duduk ke bangun dalam kelas tu pun dah tak tentu arah. Pastu, I call Farah, dia ada kat bawah. So, I just stay kat luar tunggu dia and after that dia pon sampai.
and masa presentation tu entah kenapa tiba2 ada stage fright haha biar betul Munirah Musa??
and alhamdulillah semua dapat perform dengan baik.
All the best for our final. Thank you sebab sudi bergroup dengan Muni. Sedih jugaklah sebab Athirah and Azhar dah intern dah lepas ni. Farah pulak, last sem dia short sem ni.
Maybe I am too overthink or exaggerate on how lucky I am for working with contagious people like them. Semua background dip in business, islamic banking and hanya aku diploma lain.
Alhamdulillah Ya Allah, walaupun dah banyak orang datang dan pergi tapi yang masih ada ni, aku berdoa agar mereka sentiasa ada sehinggalah ke akhirnya. Setiap seorang dari mereka mengajar aku untuk memandang kehidupan dari perspektif yang berbeza. I am seriously gonna miss them.
Athirah ni, I kenal masa sem 1. Dia, Azhar and Mansor dari Sem 1 kenal masa kelas Personal Financial Management 2. Diorang dah kenal Muni masa Muni acah2 usahawan berjaya hahaha. and kelas tu masa tu Muni tembam lagi, tak perasan ada Naim, Ridhuan, Hakim and Farhan. Last2 jumpa balik masa diorang last sem iaitu sem ni dalam kelas Fiqh Muamalat bersama Dr.Issofou hehe.
Athirah di berdisiplin dan sangat fokus dalam kelas. Unlike me yang selalu lost dalam kelas. Entah apa yang difikirkan pon tak tahulah.Sejujurnya Athirah, memanglah ramai yang maybe kenal saya tp you were a friend or the friend yang I can always trust. and I am a little bit afraid that next sem sy tk jumpa a person who sincerely listening to me. Thank you Athirah for always being there for me.
Teringat masa dia tanya 'awak ada masalah ke?' I just angguk. Dia tanya, 'masalah besar ke?' and I just angguk. That time masa I let go semua jawatan because of certain important choices for my future.
Begitu juga dengan Haziq yang nampak biasa tapi luar biasa. Haziq and Farah, Muni tak kenal diorang since sem 1. I have a friend namanya Eddy, my business partner and I boleh cam siapa kawan Eddy as selalu jumpa Eddy for my sticker. Lepas Eddy habis kelas je, yeah I will go to him untuk sticker and nampaklah Haziq, Farah and Najib dengan dia. and tak lama kemudian, I think Sem 4, belajar IBO sama-sama dengan Farah and also baru nak bercakap and borak dengan Haziq. Akhirnya, sem 5 jadilah kawan. Diorang ni gila-gila, kadang2 bagi nasihat kaw2 punya haha. Mingle with them are my fav thing to do. Suka tengok diorang ni ketawa. and that is the reason why I tried to be funnier than hari biasa haha tp always failed.
and last class with Dr.Ridzuan, aku sedih bila part dia cakap 'saya doakan student sy...' entah kenapa aku sedih. maybe sebab going through sem 4 and sem 5 is tough and so difficult, and he is one of the lecturer who keep motivating and marah2 kalau niat tak betul datang ke universiti. and selain Issofou, Dr.Ridzuan ingat nama Muni and always repeat it bila dia nak communicate. Sedih kan?
Semoga Allah membalas jasa2 cikgu saya yang mengajar saya dengan penuh sabar.
and that is the end of this semester. Allah The Most Loving.
tak pernah-pernah ready seawal itu haha. Ini semua sebab nervous nak present depan lecturer, nervous tu lain mcm, uish,
Sampai-sampai je kat Ys, I terus ke makmal komputer untuk revise apa yang dah direhearse sejak sebulan yang lalu. Our title kali ini agak senang iaitu Children Education Takaful Plan. Hah.
Isi kandungan presentation tu adalah pengenalan dia, features, underlying contract, applied concept, comparisons of products and comparisons between Takaful and Insurance in terms of Children Edu Plan.
Dalam pukul 8.00 pagi mcm tu semua dah ws masing2 haha. I ws Farah, Farah tanya pasal Haziq, and I ws Haziq. ws Athirah and Azhar and make sure semua dah gerak. Haha. Lawak betul. Kene pulak present pukul 8.30 pagi adoii.
Masuk je kelas, Sir dah masuk, Athirah and Azhar pon baru sampai, lepastu nampak Aiman and Haziq baru nak masuk kelas. Farah? Hahaha. Mana pulak dia ni haha. Sir ckp, 'saya bagi 10 minit ye, kalau dia tak sampai lagi, saya potong markah'. I dah gelabah nak duduk ke bangun dalam kelas tu pun dah tak tentu arah. Pastu, I call Farah, dia ada kat bawah. So, I just stay kat luar tunggu dia and after that dia pon sampai.
and masa presentation tu entah kenapa tiba2 ada stage fright haha biar betul Munirah Musa??
and alhamdulillah semua dapat perform dengan baik.
All the best for our final. Thank you sebab sudi bergroup dengan Muni. Sedih jugaklah sebab Athirah and Azhar dah intern dah lepas ni. Farah pulak, last sem dia short sem ni.
Maybe I am too overthink or exaggerate on how lucky I am for working with contagious people like them. Semua background dip in business, islamic banking and hanya aku diploma lain.
Alhamdulillah Ya Allah, walaupun dah banyak orang datang dan pergi tapi yang masih ada ni, aku berdoa agar mereka sentiasa ada sehinggalah ke akhirnya. Setiap seorang dari mereka mengajar aku untuk memandang kehidupan dari perspektif yang berbeza. I am seriously gonna miss them.
Athirah ni, I kenal masa sem 1. Dia, Azhar and Mansor dari Sem 1 kenal masa kelas Personal Financial Management 2. Diorang dah kenal Muni masa Muni acah2 usahawan berjaya hahaha. and kelas tu masa tu Muni tembam lagi, tak perasan ada Naim, Ridhuan, Hakim and Farhan. Last2 jumpa balik masa diorang last sem iaitu sem ni dalam kelas Fiqh Muamalat bersama Dr.Issofou hehe.
Athirah di berdisiplin dan sangat fokus dalam kelas. Unlike me yang selalu lost dalam kelas. Entah apa yang difikirkan pon tak tahulah.Sejujurnya Athirah, memanglah ramai yang maybe kenal saya tp you were a friend or the friend yang I can always trust. and I am a little bit afraid that next sem sy tk jumpa a person who sincerely listening to me. Thank you Athirah for always being there for me.
Teringat masa dia tanya 'awak ada masalah ke?' I just angguk. Dia tanya, 'masalah besar ke?' and I just angguk. That time masa I let go semua jawatan because of certain important choices for my future.
Begitu juga dengan Haziq yang nampak biasa tapi luar biasa. Haziq and Farah, Muni tak kenal diorang since sem 1. I have a friend namanya Eddy, my business partner and I boleh cam siapa kawan Eddy as selalu jumpa Eddy for my sticker. Lepas Eddy habis kelas je, yeah I will go to him untuk sticker and nampaklah Haziq, Farah and Najib dengan dia. and tak lama kemudian, I think Sem 4, belajar IBO sama-sama dengan Farah and also baru nak bercakap and borak dengan Haziq. Akhirnya, sem 5 jadilah kawan. Diorang ni gila-gila, kadang2 bagi nasihat kaw2 punya haha. Mingle with them are my fav thing to do. Suka tengok diorang ni ketawa. and that is the reason why I tried to be funnier than hari biasa haha tp always failed.
and last class with Dr.Ridzuan, aku sedih bila part dia cakap 'saya doakan student sy...' entah kenapa aku sedih. maybe sebab going through sem 4 and sem 5 is tough and so difficult, and he is one of the lecturer who keep motivating and marah2 kalau niat tak betul datang ke universiti. and selain Issofou, Dr.Ridzuan ingat nama Muni and always repeat it bila dia nak communicate. Sedih kan?
Semoga Allah membalas jasa2 cikgu saya yang mengajar saya dengan penuh sabar.
and that is the end of this semester. Allah The Most Loving.
Sunday, May 20
Mama, masakan dan kegemaran. Ramadhan 5.
Hey, today mama beli nasi lemak lauk paru sambal yang merupakan kegemaran aku! and also kuey teow goreng yang sedap hahaha.
I miss Kelate. I really miss them. I don't know whether I should go back to my 2015/16 lifestyle. I mean, yes .. it was so easy that time to go to mengaji. I think I should do that but on my diet pulak, I should maintain what I've been practice since 2017 ahah!
I am still sad because of my knee. Tak sembuh lagi. I hope everything will be fine..
I miss Kelate. I really miss them. I don't know whether I should go back to my 2015/16 lifestyle. I mean, yes .. it was so easy that time to go to mengaji. I think I should do that but on my diet pulak, I should maintain what I've been practice since 2017 ahah!
I am still sad because of my knee. Tak sembuh lagi. I hope everything will be fine..
Thursday, May 17
Bubur lambuk UniKL Business School and do not spying into each other :/
Alhamdulillah, sempena Ramadhan yang mulia ini, my campus is distributing bubur lambuk to hostels and those yang dah tulis nama untuk juadah berbuka puasa.
Unfortunately, I am not at the campus and the bubur lambuk I intended to give to someone else whom is my own friend, Mas.
and today I accidentally viewing an account of someone that do not know me and I forgot that I already promised to myself to not spying people!
Do you know why?
Unfortunately, I am not at the campus and the bubur lambuk I intended to give to someone else whom is my own friend, Mas.
and today I accidentally viewing an account of someone that do not know me and I forgot that I already promised to myself to not spying people!
Do you know why?
I hope what happen yesterday will be the last time I'm doing that. May Allah protect us from our greed.
Keep everything about other people to yourself unless it is not a big deal to expose like what school they are from and etc.
Till then.
Kak Ira, cancelled test, cancelled betulkan motor, new brand curly hair and buka puasa.
Okay. Who is Kak Ira? I met her last year during our netball training with Mix United club at Shah Alam. She is very pretty like chinese but got Arab's name that is Sharifah specifically keturunan Nabi Muhammad s.a.w lah.
She is a very good goal defender and is one of the USM's graduate. She is one of the Takaful Agent and now she is going to teach me to be like her. Ya Allah, please ease my journey on this. I do not why but I love helping people even though the one who might need more help and attention is me me me me me me. Hahaha.
However, I woke up late and the test that I have to sit today was cancelled. I'm really sorry Kak Ira.
Also, haha sebenarnya keluar rumah lepas zohor untuk betulkan motor. The plate number, I don't really remember bila dia pecah mcm tu. Tapi, I was more excited to cut my hair. Haha. and sampai je kat Saloon. Nenek kat sebelah I was getting her hair cut and kerinting! I was like ... aha! let's have a cut like Lea in The Good Doctor hahahaha. and yeah. Balik rumah, showing my mom the brand new hair and mama laughed at me. She said I look happuy mcm budak kecik baru dapat rambut baru. Haaha. Okay.
and buka puasa for the 1st day of Ramadhan. Hope I'm losing some weight.
Tuesday, May 15
HKL, cancelled presentation and 'I just knew'
Dear elly,
while waitin the doc, there were an Indian family with an old lady sitting on the wheelchair and being friendly and approach me. You mengundi tak? and I smiled. hahaha.
Me: Yes. Saya mengundi.
She: Undi apa?
Me: Rahsialah. Haha
She: Tak apa, bagitahulah.
Me: Saya undi yang dah menanglah. ahhaha
She: Haha. Saya pun sama. Terima kasih banyak-banyak!
Me: Hahaha and happily laughing together with her.
Me: Kenapa tu dengan aunty?
She: Itu mak saya. Dia jatuh lepas balik kerja.
Me: Oh, kerja apa?
She: Kerja cleaner. You, itu mak you ke? *pointing finger at sebarang malay old lady sebelah aku
Me: Bukanlah. Saya jatuh. Masa training.
She: Oh, you athlete ke?
Me: Yeah. Sort of.
and then giliran dia. and her family was like 'okay, kami masuk dulu'.. then, tak lama lepas giliran dia habis, they bid farewell to me 'balik dulu!' ahahahaha.
Good people are exists! Huhu
Then, my giliran pulak emmm I am suspected with 'sports injuries' specifically ACL. =(
The x-ray cannot show me what happen actually with my acl but alhamdulillah tak ada fracture.
Kat bilk X-ray tu ada abang askar and pakcik baju biru pekat dengan kaki yang berdarah. Innalillah. Get well soon korang.
Doktor then give me ubat untuk surutkan bengkak and me? advisable to not getting involve with netball training and yeah I am so sad. :((((
Adik datang and teman until I finished all the tests and balik rumah sama-sama. Our first sahur was not bad.
Pagi ni pulak, it was presentation week for Takaful and Retakaful subject with my fav lecturer Dr. Ridzuan and my fav teammate Farah, Haziq, Athirah and Azhar. I guess I would be fine sebab friends 'menceriakan hidupmu' yeah. Farah and Athirah dah pakai cantik-cantik and so do Azhar handsomely, presentable for our presentation and Haziq? krik krik krik..... belum sampai.
Luckily, our presentation punya turn adalah yang ke-7. WHAT? KETUJUH??? Literally, it is obvious kitorang kene present next week. --__-- Then, Haziq pon sampai dengan pakaian putih bak bidadari. Dah bercahaya macam sinar hidayah pun ada dengan Aiman yg yeah.. budak pandai genius memang macam ni hahaha. Then, we discussed about the questions. Sementara tu, I am repeatedly looking at my phone and then the laptop and the the notes given by Athirah, preparing for our presentation. And my bad sebab tak pandang sangat presenter kat depan except if in that group ada kawan I macam Scha Wan Shameyra Da Bomb. Sebab itulah my fav lecturer tu aim aku je untuk bg questions untuk presenter kat depann. Errrrr, sir.. I was like.. tadi kan saya dah tanya *dalam hati
My 2nd question are not from me as I get helped from Haziq and Azhar. The question related dengan investment-linked and I am still blurred about my own question?? Hahaha Pengajarannya, kene fokus okay.
and again Dr. Ridzuan was like ' okay, last question from Munirah... ' dah macam pistol yang tidak kehabisan peluru hahaha. Then, aku tanyalah pasal profit ratio. And I was a bit afraid ... afraid kalau question tu tak valid but sir was in silence and Haziq pulak yg reassure ' validlah tu' then aku sambung balik kerja aku. and then this senyap diam ubi berisi ni yang jwb juga soalan tu ' memang awal2 dah decide berapa profit ratio' and for previous question pun si dia ni jwb ' pelaburan Islam memang tak boleh confirm and janjikan profit sebab kita ada risiko' and I was like 'Wow, macam mana kau tahu? Nampak biasa tp luar biasa' and macam biasa dia angkat kening and 'I just knewla'
Haha. Geram pulak aku mcm mana org ada kecerdikan yang tak dizahirkan.
Unlike me, nampak cerdik tapi Ya Allah, Allah je tahu how much I was not systematic, intelligence and ordinary people but maybe a bit rajin. Perhaps.
Lastly, duduk depan dengan Farah and dah tak kena tanya soalan dah. Hahaha. Dr, you are so prihatin kalau student tak fokus. Bagus! haha.
Till then.
while waitin the doc, there were an Indian family with an old lady sitting on the wheelchair and being friendly and approach me. You mengundi tak? and I smiled. hahaha.
Me: Yes. Saya mengundi.
She: Undi apa?
Me: Rahsialah. Haha
She: Tak apa, bagitahulah.
Me: Saya undi yang dah menanglah. ahhaha
She: Haha. Saya pun sama. Terima kasih banyak-banyak!
Me: Hahaha and happily laughing together with her.
Me: Kenapa tu dengan aunty?
She: Itu mak saya. Dia jatuh lepas balik kerja.
Me: Oh, kerja apa?
She: Kerja cleaner. You, itu mak you ke? *pointing finger at sebarang malay old lady sebelah aku
Me: Bukanlah. Saya jatuh. Masa training.
She: Oh, you athlete ke?
Me: Yeah. Sort of.
and then giliran dia. and her family was like 'okay, kami masuk dulu'.. then, tak lama lepas giliran dia habis, they bid farewell to me 'balik dulu!' ahahahaha.
Good people are exists! Huhu
Then, my giliran pulak emmm I am suspected with 'sports injuries' specifically ACL. =(
The x-ray cannot show me what happen actually with my acl but alhamdulillah tak ada fracture.
Kat bilk X-ray tu ada abang askar and pakcik baju biru pekat dengan kaki yang berdarah. Innalillah. Get well soon korang.
Doktor then give me ubat untuk surutkan bengkak and me? advisable to not getting involve with netball training and yeah I am so sad. :((((
Adik datang and teman until I finished all the tests and balik rumah sama-sama. Our first sahur was not bad.
Pagi ni pulak, it was presentation week for Takaful and Retakaful subject with my fav lecturer Dr. Ridzuan and my fav teammate Farah, Haziq, Athirah and Azhar. I guess I would be fine sebab friends 'menceriakan hidupmu' yeah. Farah and Athirah dah pakai cantik-cantik and so do Azhar handsomely, presentable for our presentation and Haziq? krik krik krik..... belum sampai.
Luckily, our presentation punya turn adalah yang ke-7. WHAT? KETUJUH??? Literally, it is obvious kitorang kene present next week. --__-- Then, Haziq pon sampai dengan pakaian putih bak bidadari. Dah bercahaya macam sinar hidayah pun ada dengan Aiman yg yeah.. budak pandai genius memang macam ni hahaha. Then, we discussed about the questions. Sementara tu, I am repeatedly looking at my phone and then the laptop and the the notes given by Athirah, preparing for our presentation. And my bad sebab tak pandang sangat presenter kat depan except if in that group ada kawan I macam Scha Wan Shameyra Da Bomb. Sebab itulah my fav lecturer tu aim aku je untuk bg questions untuk presenter kat depann. Errrrr, sir.. I was like.. tadi kan saya dah tanya *dalam hati
My 2nd question are not from me as I get helped from Haziq and Azhar. The question related dengan investment-linked and I am still blurred about my own question?? Hahaha Pengajarannya, kene fokus okay.
and again Dr. Ridzuan was like ' okay, last question from Munirah... ' dah macam pistol yang tidak kehabisan peluru hahaha. Then, aku tanyalah pasal profit ratio. And I was a bit afraid ... afraid kalau question tu tak valid but sir was in silence and Haziq pulak yg reassure ' validlah tu' then aku sambung balik kerja aku. and then this senyap diam ubi berisi ni yang jwb juga soalan tu ' memang awal2 dah decide berapa profit ratio' and for previous question pun si dia ni jwb ' pelaburan Islam memang tak boleh confirm and janjikan profit sebab kita ada risiko' and I was like 'Wow, macam mana kau tahu? Nampak biasa tp luar biasa' and macam biasa dia angkat kening and 'I just knewla'
Haha. Geram pulak aku mcm mana org ada kecerdikan yang tak dizahirkan.
Unlike me, nampak cerdik tapi Ya Allah, Allah je tahu how much I was not systematic, intelligence and ordinary people but maybe a bit rajin. Perhaps.
Lastly, duduk depan dengan Farah and dah tak kena tanya soalan dah. Hahaha. Dr, you are so prihatin kalau student tak fokus. Bagus! haha.
Till then.
Sunday, May 13
Netball, kuih tart nenas and latihan Bahasa Inggeris
I decided to tell my mother about this pain under my knee cap. Yes, my friends and I were guessing that I maybe had the ACL injury :( . The AIA Medical Card does not cover me if I go to clinic and asking for the scan. As a result, I must drop by to the hospital but the netball training start tomorrow night!
:( have you ever getting injured but you are the stars of your campus? Hello????? anyone? :(
Sorry Razanah, I'm little bit stubborn right now but yeah I will see the doctor first and then I will make the decision :(
Munirah! Think wisely okay.
and also, my mom and I had a discussion on how to sell our biskut tart nenas :) It was so delicious and we are very confident to bring those tester to our place tomorrow (mama's office) and me (UniKL).
Lastly, Maisarah and I will continuously doing our latihtubi for MUET arrrghhh. This is scary!
Goodnight.
:( have you ever getting injured but you are the stars of your campus? Hello????? anyone? :(
Sorry Razanah, I'm little bit stubborn right now but yeah I will see the doctor first and then I will make the decision :(
Munirah! Think wisely okay.
and also, my mom and I had a discussion on how to sell our biskut tart nenas :) It was so delicious and we are very confident to bring those tester to our place tomorrow (mama's office) and me (UniKL).
Lastly, Maisarah and I will continuously doing our latihtubi for MUET arrrghhh. This is scary!
Goodnight.
Eldest
being an eldest is not an easy task for me. As I have to led them through example. The way I manage my time. Manage my homework and my daily activities.
I try.
Saturday, May 12
Kek dan dia
Ini sebuah mimpi. Sedih sebab orang yang dimimpikan tiada di sisi.
Tengok phone ada dua kali missed called dari dia. Tengok WhatsApp dia dah unblocked and cakap suruh pergi pilih kek.
I don't remember sama ada dalam mimpi tu dia bercakap ke tak or kita berborak ke tak dalam telefon. I was so happy sampai lupa kata2 dia yang menghiris hati tu.
Pilih kek. Nanti dia nak dtg rumah.
Terjaga pulak I and I cried sebab itu mimpi je. Then, I tidur balik.
Mimpi that again he texted me 'dah sampai kedai ke?' and 'dah pilih kek ke?'.
But, terjaga balik. And it hurts. Ya Allah, I never want to dream about him anymore.
It hurts. It hurts because this reminds me of how careless I am in handling our friendship. I turned this from a friend to a stranger.
When I woke up, I still can't see his dp nor his status so I guess. . he's done.
Fi hifzillah. I hope you will stop hating me okay? :'/
Tengok phone ada dua kali missed called dari dia. Tengok WhatsApp dia dah unblocked and cakap suruh pergi pilih kek.
I don't remember sama ada dalam mimpi tu dia bercakap ke tak or kita berborak ke tak dalam telefon. I was so happy sampai lupa kata2 dia yang menghiris hati tu.
Pilih kek. Nanti dia nak dtg rumah.
Terjaga pulak I and I cried sebab itu mimpi je. Then, I tidur balik.
Mimpi that again he texted me 'dah sampai kedai ke?' and 'dah pilih kek ke?'.
But, terjaga balik. And it hurts. Ya Allah, I never want to dream about him anymore.
It hurts. It hurts because this reminds me of how careless I am in handling our friendship. I turned this from a friend to a stranger.
When I woke up, I still can't see his dp nor his status so I guess. . he's done.
Fi hifzillah. I hope you will stop hating me okay? :'/
Bittersweet
Last week, I terpilih untuk menyertai Team Netball UniKL as one of the defenders. Alhamdulillah. I am so happy. The coach even recognize me and she was the one who pick me when orang lain yeah maybe they did not see my potential hehe.
Unfortunately, I'm having pain under my cap of knee. Then, I search kat google and cari anatomy of the knee and I found maybe I'm having problem with my anterior cruciate ligament (ACL) :(
I am so sad right now as to be one of the IPT's netballers is one of my greatest dream :(
Sedihnya Ya Allah. I then refer to Razanah about the pain as she is one of the IIUM's netballers. She said 'prevention is better than cure'. Dia cakap, ramai kawan dia didiagnos dapat tear kat ACL. Tp, teruskan main akhirnya dah tak dapat main terus. Kene surgery pulak tu. Yeah. So, maybe I will be seeing one of the doctor soon. Naem pun suruh gi scan. Coz Naem is one of the UniKL's football player. Dia, lagilah doktor siap ckp maybe retak but still dia boleh jalan and main lagi. Doktor tak bagi simen. Dah dua tahun but dia steady je. So, yeah. Nanti kena minta maaf kat coach and kena undur diri :(
It was hard for me.
May Allah strength my heart. You know best for me. I'm sorry for complaining. I hope one day you can let me be in any netball team. Even though next year I probably tak join anything sebab dah intern July tu. :'). Alhamdulillah ala kulli hal.
Unfortunately, I'm having pain under my cap of knee. Then, I search kat google and cari anatomy of the knee and I found maybe I'm having problem with my anterior cruciate ligament (ACL) :(
I am so sad right now as to be one of the IPT's netballers is one of my greatest dream :(
Sedihnya Ya Allah. I then refer to Razanah about the pain as she is one of the IIUM's netballers. She said 'prevention is better than cure'. Dia cakap, ramai kawan dia didiagnos dapat tear kat ACL. Tp, teruskan main akhirnya dah tak dapat main terus. Kene surgery pulak tu. Yeah. So, maybe I will be seeing one of the doctor soon. Naem pun suruh gi scan. Coz Naem is one of the UniKL's football player. Dia, lagilah doktor siap ckp maybe retak but still dia boleh jalan and main lagi. Doktor tak bagi simen. Dah dua tahun but dia steady je. So, yeah. Nanti kena minta maaf kat coach and kena undur diri :(
It was hard for me.
May Allah strength my heart. You know best for me. I'm sorry for complaining. I hope one day you can let me be in any netball team. Even though next year I probably tak join anything sebab dah intern July tu. :'). Alhamdulillah ala kulli hal.
Thursday, May 10
Malaysia dan saya
Hari ini adalah hari kedua selepas PRU ke-14. Entah kenapa terasa macam mimpi bila Pakatan Harapan menang dengan kerjasama Tun M sendiri. Bukanlah sangat membenci pada kerajaan yang sebelumnya tetapi teruja untuk melihat pucuk kepimpinan baru. Entah kenapa hati ini berbisik, bukan kerajaan Malaysia je yang kene melakukan perubahan. Kita ni khususnya diri sendiri kena berubah seiring dengan perubahan yang akan berlaku kelak.
Terbaca one of the twitter post yang ada 'you know what the corrupt leaders most afraid of? Educated voters'
Be educated.
and tak lupa kepada Senator Nik Omar <3 div="">
Wednesday, February 21
Deep Conversation with a new friend.
Bismillah,
1. Halal dan haram dalam mencari pendapatan.
2. Hina di mata manusia tak semestinya hina di mata Allah, mulia dia mata manusia tak semestinya mulia di mata Allah. :(
3. Dengarlah nasihat walaupun daripada seorang pelacur.
4. Wanita ni adalah fitnah akhir zaman dan kelemahan lelaki adalah wanita.
5. Nasihatku utk kau, berdoalah banyak2 agar dapat lelaki yang baik. :(
6. Jadilah wanita yang menyimpan rahsia, suami nak pilih yang betul2 dan jaga isteri dia sebab tu wanita mesti simpan aib dia.
7. Lelaki, jauh mana menyimpang dia akan berhenti dan fikir balik. Perempuan, kita kena jaga dia elok2.
8. Istidraj - Allah bagi, tp kita makin menyimpang dan makin jauh.
9. Dakwah ni ada jalan dia, ada cara approach dia, nak approach jangan main terkam nanti tak kena cara.
10. Duk sorang2 ni ada hikmah dia, belajar berdikari, ada masa sendiri. Hargai.
11. Ada orang dia lemah kira2 tapi bab facts dia okay. Ikut minat masing2.
12. Ilmu ni, belajar kena dari asas, kalau tak mahir tajwid tapi terus baca al-Quran mesti ada slack kat mana2. Sama juga dengan ilmu yang lain. Kukuhkan dulu asas baru ngaji bab lain.
13. Kena ready juga sebab bila2 masa saja Allah boleh tarik orang yang kita sayang. Kena kuat satu hal, kena cepat2 stabilize diri.
14. Doa lembutkan hati orang ada, dengan ayat Al-Quran, tak perlu mantera2.
15. Jangan buka aib sendiri, Allah dah tutup elok cantik2. Kalau dah terbuka tu sebab nak jadikan pengajaran dan pedoman. :(
16. Ada orang belajar tetapi hatinya pandang rendah pada orang lain, dia sahaja yang betul. Itu yang kene betulkan, hati tu kene belajar bersihkan.
17. Kemanisan iman, harapan.
18. Semakin banyak ilmu, semakin banyak dan besar tanggungjawab. Contoh, macam kau belajar doktor.. Jiran kau sakit, takkan kau boleh cakap tak nak tolong. Kau mesti kene tolong.
18. Semakin banyak ilmu, semakin banyak dan besar tanggungjawab. Contoh, macam kau belajar doktor.. Jiran kau sakit, takkan kau boleh cakap tak nak tolong. Kau mesti kene tolong.
19. Banyaknya orang yang zahirnya solat tetapi cara mereka mencari rezeki tu banyaknya yang datang dari cara yang tidak bersih.
:'/
Menjadi hamba Allah yang sentiasa mengakui dosa2nya dan kembali kepadaNya adalah sebuah nikmat yang sangat bernilai.
Semoga Allah mengampunkan dosa2 kita.
Semoga Allah kasihankan kita :'/
Allah, Engkau benar2 Maha Berkuasa. :')
Selamat Hari Jadi Maisarah Musa :)
Born in 2000, I am still in love with you!
Kakak doakan Sarah jadi anak yang solehah, tabah hatinya menghadapi kehidupan ini. Jangan pernah mengalah untuk mencapai impian dan cita2 Sarah.
Believe me, you are the prettiest in this family and going to marry a very handsome guy with solehah attitude InsyaAllah :p
Smile always. I love you, let's prove to Allah that we can live like this at hereafter.
Please take care of yourself, fi hifzillah ❤
Kakak doakan Sarah jadi anak yang solehah, tabah hatinya menghadapi kehidupan ini. Jangan pernah mengalah untuk mencapai impian dan cita2 Sarah.
Believe me, you are the prettiest in this family and going to marry a very handsome guy with solehah attitude InsyaAllah :p
Smile always. I love you, let's prove to Allah that we can live like this at hereafter.
Please take care of yourself, fi hifzillah ❤
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