Nur Episod 9 :')

Doing daawah on TV and on the streets it's two different thing, and has different impact..
If you go to the ground, to the alleys

It helps us to understand what they are going through..

It's two way communication..

On TV or other forms of media, that is doing daawah with one way communication.
I can just give out hukum directly .. but those who listens could turn out to be a judgemental society..
who only knows how to judge and never seek to understand..

while Islam itself it is all about IHSAN.. It is not a judgemental religion as what most people are perceiving now...

No more tears :)

Alhamdulillah for today, it started off so well.
Bangun awal untuk ke kampus sebab Farah ajak study Innovation Management.
Borak punya borak, I told her that I lost contact with Eddy. And she knows where is Eddy now because Najib told her.

Najib then come to the library to study ICM with Farah. While I'm busy finishing my simple ke laut but functional last minutes notes haha for the revision..

Najib then lepak while Farah and I had a discussions about the subjects haha. Farah is unbelievably funny. Then, I asked Najib, where is Eddy?

He said Eddy is not at semenanjung and tengah bisnes kat sana. I said, well did he changed his number? Pastu boleh pulak Najib asking me this question, "Kau minat Eddy ke?" HAHAHAHA

Tergamam aku kat situ. Like.. heyy.. how do we know whether kita suka ke apa ke sebab I dah lupa benda2 macam ni hahaha. I said 'Well, masa aku sem 1, sem 2, aku mana ada kawan sgt, dia jelah kawan aku, sayang arr.. kawan kan'

Farah gelak je and Najib terus ws dia hahaha. He said nanti lepas Rayalah Eddy dtg jumpa diorang semua. Hahaha. Baguslah. Najib siap gurau, nanti dia balik dia nak terus masuk minang kau eh. Gurau gurau. Bongok Najib ni hahaha.

After he left, Farah then asked me, takkanlah takde sikitpun perasaan?
Haha. I said, I don't know. I forgot how does it feel.. hahaha

So, we continue doing our revision. Maigaad.. Inno Management is demmit so much to remember aiyo.

Thank you Allah. I am thankful for today.
May You ease both of us in our final exam.   ❤

Balang Biskut, Baju Raya Adik, Sarah dan Mama

So, today I manage to follow my mother and sisters ke Sri Gombak untuk beli balang biskut for our kuih tart..

Mama was so excited about the kedai named Bake Well, dalam kedai tu, I saw tauke dia, Apek tua yang sedang memberi arahan kepada pekerja2 dia. Also, ramai gila orang in that shop.

Beside the Bake Well, ada kedai buah-buahan yang sudah mula pasang lagu raya hahaha.

Lepastu geraklah ke Carrefour atau sekarang nama dia Aeon Big, ramai sangat orang. I stayed in the car. too tired untuk Window Shopping haha.

Innalillah for a family who their car had an accident masa nak cari parking. The driver tak sedarkan diri langsung and they were a lot of people stop by to help them.
Adik and Sarah luckily dah ada baju raya and no need untuk ke tempat lain..

and Mama is not feeling well masa iftar. . hopefully, it will be fine soon..

Irfan and his loneliness

I have a friend who seems so bright and creative but his art was explaining something else.

Last time, he wrote... Alone.

Ohh why, why and why.

The mystery of a genius friend who is still walking in my campus. Irfan.

Real wins the match but Liverpool wins our heart

I love you lfc.

Aisyah: Sejak bila ni? Pergh!

Me: Sejak Mo Salah. Hahahahaha.

YNWA uuuuuu.

Aisyah, Liverpool dan ujian

Aisyah is at Kuala Lumpur now! Aisyah ada ada rombongan dengan bas at Jalan TAR. Pergh. Belum raya dah jalan2. Awesome UPSi haha.

And tonight.. Liverpool lawan Real Madrid.. hahaha.. sejak Mo Salah ada.. kita pun nam tumpang femes gak..

Then, I watched the Habib Ali Zaenal Abidin's video.. Segala ujian, dugaan adalah untuk menghapuskan dosa kita. Untuk mengangkat darjat kita dan untuk mengingatkan kita kepada Allah.


Thank you for the reminder!

A failed anak dara

Yeap.
I am describing me.

I am supposedly helping my mom finishing her legend tart nenas but I'm wasting my time to grieve over my pain.
Mama's got pain too and she's there.. slaying like a queen while me..


Crying, sleeping, praying but not patiently..

I'm sorry mama..

I need a little more time that I'll promise that... I promise to not to fall tonight and tomorrow I'm not sure enough to stay strong..

what a weak pathetic me..

Sabar

I miss Ustaz Aziz...

He said, bila ditimpa musibah.. ucapkanlah alhamdulillah..

Org beriman akan rasa manis dengan bala y menimpa..

But still, I'm scared that this is a punishment..

If this situation is the reason for my sins are to be forgiven..

Please make me be a sabr person..

This Monday, I'll be going to HKL to meet the doctor back.

and about my kazama family.. I don't think that I want... I don't know anymore..

Hang kena sentiasa bersedia untuk kehilangan benda y hang paling sayang. Kena cepat2 stabilizekan diri - Haziq Firdaus

You're not the one who are living with the pain.. you are not alone Munirah.

Be strong okay.
Aisyah also always will be there okay.

Dear knee, you're making me freaking out

Losing the ability to pray properly is fucking sucks.

Why don't you help me! Are you giving up on me too?

I'm even more scared of not being able to run or kicking again.

Ya Allah... what's happening... I'm so sad......

maybe I am not a person

Maybe, to him, I am not a person. I am not a people. Before this, I was a friend. But, after what I did, I think he blamed me for turning myself into a stranger. He made me feel that all of this is my fault. Until I realized, maybe it is. It is my fault.

Still, I am not a person to him coz if I am, he will able to forgive or still letting me in.

Why is it so hard  to forget? Why is it hard to change this feeling? Is this is what we called love? Or it is just a temporary feeling of unable to accept things the way it is?

Why do I need him? What else left to be discuss? He is not the person whom you've been talking before. He's changed.

I'm afraid that this.. what I felt inside is not what it is ..

How do we ever determine whether it is love or unsettle desire to give up?

Why do I bother if he misunderstood?

He can't understand and I should let go.

But, why every time I decided to let go,
my heart says something else.

Why do my heart believe that you'll be there soon..

You've said clearly that you hate me and hate me even more for asking what you couldn't do.

90% of me, I'm  done.

But why,,, it keeps falling back to the idea of..
being somebody in ur life..

And I hope someday I'll make it out of here..
Even if it takes all night or a hundred years, - lovely

Dear The Most Loving, you knows best.

9 Ramadhan 1439, Lovely by Khalid ft Elli and be ready.

Masih di juzuk 2. Ahaa. So, today I come by my university to settle my bar form. The weather is quite bright and hot.

I also take almost 10 minutes to complete the video of self introduction for my boss. She needed that for marketing purpose of her tuition business.

my mother bought the crispy chicken with cheese sauce from kfc but I can't stand the milky cheesy taste with that oily crispy chicken and I ended up putting a lot of chili sauce on top of my chicken haha.

about the slimming or shaping cream that suggest by maksu.. the feeling of using that cream is painful haha.. it is super hot and I think my skin is aching because of the effects of the burning power from that cream.. aaaaaa.. panas woi..


I am so fall in love with Khalid's new song from 13 Reasons Why 2. The music and the lyrics is so overwhelming and remind me of my situation. I do not want to ever express my feelings directly or bluntly. I always feel that songs could work on that almost 80% and sometimes it can makes me feel relieve.

I know that not everyone who will go to check the lyrics but the right person will eventually look forward for its meaning.

and Allah's plan is always the best. I trust You. Always.

I hope that my customer will never drop by here

Hi, yeah..

Being a person who promoting products for the sake of business is kind of challenging.
You cannot simply posting about how do you really felt when you are upset coz all of the prospects have to see is the positives vibes. Which, I think that I only want to express my real feelings here. Maybe my prospects shouldn't  need to know about the deeper details about me but I needed my close friend to catching up with what happen to me through socmed but somehow I don't think fb,ig and twitter is the right place for me to do so. So, I ended up writing here back.

I am not happy all the time but my business or my small selling operation I guess..must have 'the happy or positives waves' so that it can help in terms of showing that I am reliable,strong, brave and okay. Building the trust is not easy.

It is not tht I pretending to be okay at the socmed. It is just an act of patience from showing how pathetic my life are sometimws. And I wish I would have never ever wanna make my friend or my prospects have this impression 'play sympathy' to me. May Allah ease.

and that's all tht I wanna tell you guys todah. Thank you for spending ur time here. I really appreciate it.

Salam Takziah.

I heard that one of your friend passed away, I am familiar with her name. I've seen it somewhere.
Allah loves her more.

Khae, if I be the first of us to die. . . remember that I'll never hate you.. you're always my friend..
my favorite..

know that I am so sorry for ruining our friendship..

thank you for everything.. 

maybe you understand infinity by love

Selasa, Farah, Haziq, Athirah, Azhar and my last class for this semester.

Tak dapat tidur malam, and ended up tak tidur. Preparing for the presentation and get ready untuk hantar Mikhael ke sekolah.

tak pernah-pernah ready seawal itu haha. Ini semua sebab nervous nak present depan lecturer, nervous tu lain mcm, uish,

Sampai-sampai je kat Ys, I terus ke makmal komputer untuk revise apa yang dah direhearse sejak sebulan yang lalu. Our title kali ini agak senang iaitu Children Education Takaful Plan. Hah.

Isi kandungan presentation tu adalah pengenalan dia, features, underlying contract, applied concept, comparisons of products and comparisons between Takaful and Insurance in terms of Children Edu Plan.

Dalam pukul 8.00 pagi mcm tu semua dah ws masing2 haha. I ws Farah, Farah tanya pasal Haziq, and I ws Haziq. ws Athirah and Azhar and make sure semua dah gerak. Haha. Lawak betul. Kene pulak present pukul 8.30 pagi adoii.

Masuk je kelas, Sir dah masuk, Athirah and Azhar pon baru sampai, lepastu nampak Aiman and Haziq baru nak masuk kelas. Farah? Hahaha. Mana pulak dia ni haha. Sir ckp, 'saya bagi 10 minit ye, kalau dia tak sampai lagi, saya potong markah'. I dah gelabah nak duduk ke bangun dalam kelas tu pun dah tak tentu arah. Pastu, I call Farah, dia ada kat bawah. So, I just stay kat luar tunggu dia and after that dia pon sampai.

and masa presentation tu entah kenapa tiba2 ada stage fright haha biar betul Munirah Musa??
and alhamdulillah semua dapat perform dengan baik.

All the best for our final. Thank you sebab sudi bergroup dengan Muni. Sedih jugaklah sebab Athirah and Azhar dah intern dah lepas ni. Farah pulak, last sem dia short sem ni.
Maybe I am too overthink or exaggerate on how lucky I am for working with contagious people like them. Semua background dip in business, islamic banking and hanya aku diploma lain.

Alhamdulillah Ya Allah, walaupun dah banyak orang datang dan pergi tapi yang masih ada ni, aku berdoa agar mereka sentiasa ada sehinggalah ke akhirnya. Setiap seorang dari mereka mengajar aku untuk memandang kehidupan dari perspektif yang berbeza. I am seriously gonna miss them.

Athirah ni, I kenal masa sem 1. Dia, Azhar and Mansor dari Sem 1 kenal masa kelas Personal Financial Management 2. Diorang dah kenal Muni masa Muni acah2 usahawan berjaya hahaha. and kelas tu masa tu Muni tembam lagi, tak perasan ada Naim, Ridhuan, Hakim and Farhan. Last2 jumpa balik masa diorang last sem iaitu sem ni dalam kelas Fiqh Muamalat bersama Dr.Issofou hehe.
Athirah di berdisiplin dan sangat fokus dalam kelas. Unlike me yang selalu lost dalam kelas. Entah apa yang difikirkan pon tak tahulah.Sejujurnya Athirah, memanglah ramai yang maybe kenal saya tp you were a friend or the friend yang I can always trust. and I am a little bit afraid that next sem sy tk jumpa a person who sincerely listening to me. Thank you Athirah for always being there for me.
Teringat masa dia tanya 'awak ada masalah ke?' I just angguk. Dia tanya, 'masalah besar ke?' and I just angguk. That time masa I let go semua jawatan because of certain important choices for my future.

Begitu juga dengan Haziq yang nampak biasa tapi luar biasa. Haziq and Farah, Muni tak kenal diorang since sem 1. I have a friend namanya Eddy, my business partner and I boleh cam siapa kawan Eddy as selalu jumpa Eddy for my sticker. Lepas Eddy habis kelas je, yeah I will go to him untuk sticker and nampaklah Haziq, Farah and Najib dengan dia. and tak lama kemudian, I think Sem 4, belajar IBO sama-sama dengan Farah and also baru nak bercakap and borak dengan Haziq. Akhirnya, sem 5 jadilah kawan. Diorang ni gila-gila, kadang2 bagi nasihat kaw2 punya haha. Mingle with them are my fav thing to do. Suka tengok diorang ni ketawa. and that is the reason why I tried to be funnier than hari biasa haha tp always failed.

and last class with Dr.Ridzuan, aku sedih bila part dia cakap 'saya doakan student sy...' entah kenapa aku sedih. maybe sebab going through sem 4 and sem 5 is tough and so difficult, and he is one of the lecturer who keep motivating and marah2 kalau niat tak betul datang ke universiti. and selain Issofou, Dr.Ridzuan ingat nama Muni and always repeat it bila dia nak communicate. Sedih kan?
Semoga Allah membalas jasa2 cikgu saya yang mengajar saya dengan penuh sabar.


and that is the end of this semester. Allah The Most Loving.

Mama, masakan dan kegemaran. Ramadhan 5.

Hey, today mama beli nasi lemak lauk paru sambal yang merupakan kegemaran aku! and also kuey teow goreng yang sedap hahaha.

I miss Kelate. I really miss them. I don't know whether I should go back to my 2015/16 lifestyle. I mean, yes .. it was so easy that time to go to mengaji. I think I should do that but on my diet pulak, I should maintain what I've been practice since 2017 ahah!

I am still sad because of my knee. Tak sembuh lagi. I hope everything will be fine..

Bubur lambuk UniKL Business School and do not spying into each other :/

Alhamdulillah, sempena Ramadhan yang mulia ini, my campus is distributing bubur lambuk to hostels and those yang dah tulis nama untuk juadah berbuka puasa.

Unfortunately, I am not at the campus and the bubur lambuk I intended to give to someone else whom is my own friend, Mas.

and today I accidentally viewing an account of someone that do not know me and I forgot that I already promised to myself to not spying people!

Do you know why?

I hope what happen yesterday will be the last time I'm doing that. May Allah protect us from our greed. 

Keep everything about other people to yourself unless it is not a big deal to expose like what school they are from and etc.

Till then.

Kak Ira, cancelled test, cancelled betulkan motor, new brand curly hair and buka puasa.

Okay. Who is Kak Ira? I met her last year during our netball training with Mix United club at Shah Alam. She is very pretty like chinese but got Arab's name that is Sharifah specifically keturunan Nabi Muhammad s.a.w lah. 

She is a very good goal defender and is one of the USM's graduate. She is one of the Takaful Agent and now she is going to teach me to be like her. Ya Allah, please ease my journey on this. I do not why but I love helping people even though the one who might need more help and attention is me me me me me me. Hahaha. 

However, I woke up late and the test that I have to sit today was cancelled. I'm really sorry Kak Ira. 

Also, haha sebenarnya keluar rumah lepas zohor untuk betulkan motor. The plate number, I don't really remember bila dia pecah mcm tu. Tapi, I was more excited to cut my hair. Haha. and sampai je kat Saloon. Nenek kat sebelah I was getting her hair cut and kerinting! I was like ... aha! let's have a cut like Lea in The Good Doctor hahahaha. and yeah. Balik rumah, showing my mom the brand new hair and mama laughed at me. She said I look happuy mcm budak kecik baru dapat rambut baru. Haaha. Okay.

and buka puasa for the 1st day of Ramadhan. Hope I'm losing some weight. 

Maisarah and her new place. Lekor CRISPY? Ais Kepal Choco and Berry?

HKL, cancelled presentation and 'I just knew'

Dear elly,

while waitin the doc, there were an Indian family with an old lady sitting on the wheelchair and being friendly and approach me. You mengundi tak? and I smiled. hahaha.
Me: Yes. Saya mengundi.
She: Undi apa?
Me: Rahsialah. Haha
She: Tak apa, bagitahulah.
Me: Saya undi yang dah menanglah. ahhaha
She: Haha. Saya pun sama. Terima kasih banyak-banyak!
Me: Hahaha and happily laughing together with her.
Me: Kenapa tu dengan aunty?
She: Itu mak saya. Dia jatuh lepas balik kerja.
Me: Oh, kerja apa?
She: Kerja cleaner. You, itu mak you ke? *pointing finger at sebarang malay old lady sebelah aku
Me: Bukanlah. Saya jatuh. Masa training.
She: Oh, you athlete ke?
Me: Yeah. Sort of.

and then giliran dia. and her family was like 'okay, kami masuk dulu'.. then, tak lama lepas giliran dia habis, they bid farewell to me 'balik dulu!' ahahahaha. 

Good people are exists! Huhu

Then, my giliran pulak emmm I am suspected with 'sports injuries' specifically ACL. =(

The x-ray cannot show me what happen actually with my acl but alhamdulillah tak ada fracture.
Kat bilk X-ray tu ada abang askar and pakcik baju biru pekat dengan kaki yang berdarah. Innalillah. Get well soon korang.

Doktor then give me ubat untuk surutkan bengkak and me? advisable to not getting involve with netball training and yeah I am so sad. :((((

Adik datang and teman until I finished all the tests and balik rumah sama-sama. Our first sahur was not bad.

Pagi ni pulak, it was presentation week for Takaful and Retakaful subject with my fav lecturer Dr. Ridzuan and my fav teammate Farah, Haziq, Athirah and Azhar. I guess I would be fine sebab friends 'menceriakan hidupmu' yeah.  Farah and Athirah dah pakai cantik-cantik and so do Azhar handsomely, presentable for our presentation and Haziq? krik krik krik..... belum sampai.

Luckily, our presentation punya turn adalah yang ke-7. WHAT? KETUJUH??? Literally, it is obvious kitorang kene present next week. --__-- Then, Haziq pon sampai dengan pakaian putih bak bidadari. Dah bercahaya macam sinar hidayah pun ada dengan Aiman yg yeah.. budak pandai genius memang macam ni hahaha. Then, we discussed about the questions. Sementara tu, I am repeatedly looking at my phone and then the laptop and the the notes given by Athirah, preparing for our presentation. And my bad sebab tak pandang sangat presenter kat depan except if in that group ada kawan I macam Scha Wan Shameyra Da Bomb. Sebab itulah my fav lecturer tu aim aku je untuk bg questions untuk presenter kat depann. Errrrr, sir.. I was like.. tadi kan saya dah tanya *dalam hati

My 2nd question are not from me as I get helped from Haziq and Azhar. The question related dengan investment-linked and I am still blurred about my own question?? Hahaha Pengajarannya, kene fokus okay.

and again Dr. Ridzuan was like ' okay, last question from Munirah... ' dah macam pistol yang tidak kehabisan peluru hahaha. Then, aku tanyalah pasal profit ratio. And I was a bit afraid ... afraid kalau question tu tak valid but sir was in silence and Haziq pulak yg reassure ' validlah tu' then aku sambung balik kerja aku. and then this senyap diam ubi berisi ni yang jwb juga soalan tu ' memang awal2 dah decide berapa profit ratio' and for previous question pun si dia ni jwb ' pelaburan Islam memang tak boleh confirm and janjikan profit sebab kita ada risiko' and I was like 'Wow, macam mana kau tahu? Nampak biasa tp luar biasa' and macam biasa dia angkat kening and 'I just knewla'
Haha. Geram pulak aku mcm mana org ada kecerdikan yang tak dizahirkan.

Unlike me, nampak cerdik tapi Ya Allah, Allah je tahu how much I was not systematic, intelligence and ordinary people but maybe a bit rajin. Perhaps.

Lastly, duduk depan dengan Farah and dah tak kena tanya soalan dah. Hahaha. Dr, you are so prihatin kalau student tak fokus. Bagus! haha.

Till then.

Netball, kuih tart nenas and latihan Bahasa Inggeris

I decided to tell my mother about this pain under my knee cap. Yes, my friends and I were guessing that I maybe had the ACL injury :( . The AIA Medical Card does not cover me if I go to clinic and asking for the scan. As a result, I must drop by to the hospital but the netball training start tomorrow night!
:( have you ever getting injured but you are the stars of your campus? Hello????? anyone? :(

Sorry Razanah, I'm little bit stubborn right now but yeah I will see the doctor first and then I will make the decision :(

Munirah! Think wisely okay.

and also, my mom and I had a discussion on how to sell our biskut tart nenas :) It was so delicious and we are very confident to bring those tester to our place tomorrow (mama's office) and me (UniKL).

Lastly, Maisarah and I will continuously doing our latihtubi for MUET arrrghhh. This is scary!

Goodnight. 

Eldest

being an eldest is not an easy task for me. As I have to led them through example. The way I manage my time. Manage my homework and my daily activities.

 

I try.

Kek dan dia

Ini sebuah mimpi. Sedih sebab orang yang dimimpikan tiada di sisi.

Tengok phone ada dua kali missed called dari dia. Tengok WhatsApp dia dah unblocked and cakap suruh pergi pilih kek.

I don't remember sama ada dalam mimpi tu dia bercakap ke tak or kita berborak ke tak dalam telefon. I was so happy sampai lupa kata2 dia yang menghiris hati tu.

Pilih kek. Nanti dia nak dtg rumah.

Terjaga pulak I and I cried sebab itu mimpi je. Then, I tidur balik.

Mimpi that again he texted me 'dah sampai kedai ke?' and 'dah pilih kek ke?'.

But, terjaga balik. And it hurts. Ya Allah, I never want to dream about him anymore.

It hurts. It hurts because this reminds me of how careless I am in handling our friendship. I turned this from a friend to a stranger.

When I woke up, I still can't see his dp nor his status so I guess. . he's done.

Fi hifzillah. I hope you will stop hating me okay? :'/

Bittersweet

Last week, I terpilih untuk menyertai Team Netball UniKL as one of the defenders. Alhamdulillah. I am so happy. The coach even recognize me and she was the one who pick me when orang lain yeah maybe they did not see my potential hehe.

Unfortunately, I'm having pain under my cap of knee. Then, I search kat google and cari anatomy of the knee and I found maybe I'm having problem with my anterior cruciate ligament (ACL) :(
I am so sad right now as to be one of the IPT's netballers is one of my greatest dream :(

Sedihnya Ya Allah. I then refer to Razanah about the pain as she is one of the IIUM's netballers. She said 'prevention is better than cure'. Dia cakap, ramai kawan dia didiagnos dapat tear kat ACL. Tp, teruskan main akhirnya dah tak dapat main terus. Kene surgery pulak tu. Yeah. So, maybe I will be seeing one of the doctor soon. Naem pun suruh gi scan. Coz Naem is one of the UniKL's football player. Dia, lagilah doktor siap ckp maybe retak but still dia boleh jalan and main lagi. Doktor tak bagi simen. Dah dua tahun but dia steady je. So, yeah. Nanti kena minta maaf kat coach and kena undur diri :(

It was hard for me.

May Allah strength my heart. You know best for me. I'm sorry for complaining. I hope one day you can let me be in any netball team. Even though next year I probably tak join anything sebab dah intern July tu. :').  Alhamdulillah ala kulli hal. 

Malaysia dan saya

Hari ini adalah hari kedua selepas PRU ke-14. Entah kenapa terasa macam mimpi bila Pakatan Harapan menang dengan kerjasama Tun M sendiri. Bukanlah sangat membenci pada kerajaan yang sebelumnya tetapi teruja untuk melihat pucuk kepimpinan baru. Entah kenapa hati ini berbisik, bukan kerajaan Malaysia je yang kene melakukan perubahan. Kita ni khususnya diri sendiri kena berubah seiring dengan perubahan yang akan berlaku kelak.

Terbaca one of the twitter post yang ada 'you know what the corrupt leaders most afraid of? Educated voters'

Be educated. 

and tak lupa kepada Senator Nik Omar <3 div="">